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Sunday, March 11, 2018

Dear Mama,

Remember last time I told you Edgar was already hired and he's just working on his pre-employment requirements? I guess I spoke too soon. When he was able to complete his papers and submitted them, he was told that he will still have to wait for 2 to 3 months because the position was put on hold. Apparently, the company hired another guy and they said he was too late. Not a good for his supposed to be first time employment, Mama. While we are still hoping that he will eventually be hired, I advised him to go and look for other opportunities too.

We're back to square one, Mama. I hope he finds work soon so he can practice and grow on what he learned.

As for me, I'm trying to hold on Mama. I'm tired - physically, mentally, and emotionally. I'm just dragging my feet. I hope I can still go on.

I need you, Mama. 
 
Daddy
 

Sunday, February 25, 2018


Dear Mama,

At this moment, Edgar is working on his government IDs and other pre-employment requirements. He will be working soon, unfortunately not on the company that he wished to work with, but I advised and nudged him a little bit that he should at least get some working experience. I told him being unemployed for a long period of time will not look good on his resume.

He is not yet sure when he will be starting, Mama. They just gave him a list of the requirements and was told to submit them once he completes them. Hopefully, he will finished them today, he's been working on them since last week. It would be good if he can start on the first day of March, as he said, at least he would have money on his birthday.

Continue to guide and watch Edgar as he work, Mama. I can only tell him what to do, what to look out for, and the kind of people he should avoid. I will not always be beside him to tell him when he is working. I hope he will find good friends in his work.

Angel is busy in her nail arts, but she is not neglecting her studies, Mama. School year's is about to be over, and on June she will start her last year. Ralph, as you know, rarely goes home on weekends. He has his own life now. He is doing fine, Mama. 

I hope you are proud of all our children. 

That will be all for now, Mama. Take care of yourself.

I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Thursday, November 16, 2017

Dear Mama,

Edgar is now a licensed Electronics and Communications Engineer. He passed the board examination last October, Mama. I'm sure you're proud of him and you're smiling as you look down on us from up there. It would have a great celebration if only you are still here with us, Mama.

Angel is studying well. I'm sure you know she already has a boyfriend, but that is not causing any problem with her studies, at least not now. I hope they stay that way - responsible and looking after each other's studies.

Ralph is busy in his work. He goes home on weekends, although not regularly. I guess he is really enjoying his independence.

Nothing much on me, Mama. I just loss in the national speech contest of Toastmasters. I did not even earn any place. I was disqualified because I went overtime. It would have been great if only I landed even third place. I guess I am not really good at anything.

I miss you, Mama. I wish I can hold your hand right now.

I need you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Tuesday, February 7, 2017

I miss our family

Dear Mama,

It's been a year, I'm sorry. I really plan on deleting this space from the internet permanently because I feel like I'm only making things worse. I'm sorry, Mama. 

The last time I wrote I was feeling lost, now I am worse. I'm lost, confuse, and alone. The kids grew up and I am basically on my own. They are still with me, Mama although I feel that they are so distant. It's like I am losing my kids... especially Angel.

Mama, please tell me I am just overthinking. I never felt so alone in my life. Before, I knew I will always have the kids by my side. Now, I am no longer sure. I guess as long as I know that they are happy and secured, I should be contented with that.

I miss our kids, Mama. I miss my Angel.

I wish we are still a whole family.

I miss our family, Mama. I miss us. I miss you.

If only we could all be together again.

I love you, Mama.

Daddy

Thursday, January 28, 2016


I'm sorry, Mama... I failed.

Sunday, January 17, 2016

Dear Mama,

Please help me... guide me with Angel, Mama. I seem to keep on pushing her away.

Help me, Mama.

Daddy

Tuesday, January 12, 2016

Dear Mama,

Angel's 18th birthday already passed. We just went out just like a usual weekend bonding, the kids and I. Nothing special, Mama. We spent the whole afternoon in SM Clark where Angel played the Gashopon at Comic Alley (I do not know what that is) and bought her a cheesecake at a bakery in SM that she has been eyeing before. After that, we roamed around the mall again, just doing some window shopping, Mama.

Ralph's girlfriend bought her a dress as gift. I was supposed to buy her a laptop, unfortunately, we haven't received our last pay from our previous employer yet. For dinner, we went at the coffee shop of a former officemate who invited me there, her gift for Angel's birthday.

After dinner, we went to the park at Villa Angela because that's where we ate. Angel and her kuyas played on the swing. Then we went home. Angel said she was satisfied. Of course, I know better.

I'm sorry, Mama. I wish I had more to make her happy. I'm really sorry.

Please forgive me.

I love you, Mama.

I miss you.


Daddy

Monday, January 4, 2016

Dear Mama,

It looks like Angel is no longer excited for her birthday. Maybe because she knows there's nothing special that she can look forward to on that day. I did promise her to take them out, Mama. It will just be like a regular weekend bonding for us, not a memorable birthday party for her.

I'm sorry, Mama.


Daddy