Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Conscious Ralph

Dear Mama,

I never thought I'd see this day. Ralph's finally becoming conscious of his grooming and appearance. We know him to be having no qualms on whatever he wears,even when he was already in fourth year high school. But now, thing's has changed. He doesn't want wearing his old t-shirts to school because they have somewhat faded.

I am thankful that he is now conscious, but I'm sure there is a reason for it. Unfortunately Mama, I know he won't tell me. You know how he has grown apart from me. Not like before that he would tell all his secrets to me. Day after day, this gap seems to grow wider.

If you were only here, I'm pretty sure you can talk to him. He has been telling you things lately that he use to tell me, right? I guess it was all my fault really. I betrayed his trust, and now I can't win it anymore. No matter how sincere I am.

Well, these things are the kind of things that I can only talk about with you. But since, you're not here, there's really no one I can talk to. Honestly Mama, I hope that you can read my letters. I really hope so.

I guess that will all for now Mama. Please take care of yourself.

I miss you Mama. I love you.


Friday, July 25, 2008

Angel's first interview...

Dear Mama,

Yesterday, Angel told me that she conducted her first interview. She said she was very tired as she was running to and from, asking students questions. She tried to interview some teachers, but they would always turn her away and told her they were busy. They are not really very supportive, but I guess that's really an interviewer's experience.

The interview was really easy Mama, she only needs to ask recommended books and reason for today's poverty. She typed her report last night, and I checked it this morning. It wasn't that bad although it wasn't that good either. I hope she will be trained more and develop herself in her field.

And I'm sorry Mama for not being able to visit you at the cemetery lately. I hope you understand. I'm really sorry Mama.

I miss you Mama, I wish I could be with you right now. But I know that is not possible. I hope someday soon it will be. Take care of yourself Mama.

I love you.


Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Applied for a passport...

Dear Mama,

Yesterday we were finally able to apply for our passport. It took us a while because first, we don't have the money to pay for the passport fee and second, it's hard to set a schedule cause the children goes to school. But Ate Det has been nagging me, she gave me money for the fee and I asked the children to be absent for one day.

We spent a half day for all the procedures. We didn't eat out as we usually do, because the money we are bringing isn't ours. Instead, we went straight home. None of the kids were talking or asking me where we would go. They know that it's not the same as it was before.

Things are really though for us Mama, especially now that I'm really financially depleted and without anything really to expect. I wonder how we would survive for the next days.

So far, the kids are not complaining. They understand the situation and they know that there's really nothing we can do.

That's all for now Mama. Please do take care of yourself and thank you for watching us. I miss you Mama.

I love you.


Friday, July 18, 2008

Angel is also a writer....

Dear Mama,

Angel already went to school yesterday, I told her to still rest but she insisted cause she has been absent for 3 days already. When she went home yesterday afternoon, she doesn't look fine, although she kept on saying that she's just fine. Then she told me that she didn't make it to the Young Writer's Club, I knew how she wanted to be in that club. That's why she looked sad.

But today Mama, Angel is very happy because she was actually included in the Young Writer's Club. The list that she saw yesterday were the first batch, she took the test with the second batch. I am very happy for her Mama, she got what she wanted. And you know what? She is the Entertainment Editor of the club's newspaper. Aren't you proud of her Mama?!

I told her that now, she needs to practice in her writing. Improve her grammar and sentence composition. I am very much happy Mama, at her young age she already achieved what I was only dreaming of - to be in the school's newspaper. I'm so proud of her!

That will be all for now Mama. Just wanted to tell you how happy and proud I am for Angel. Take care of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Monday, July 14, 2008

Angel is still absent from school today

Dear Mama,

Unlike my letter to you last night, Angel is still not well. She still got fever. That's why she is still absent from school today. She looks worse than yesterday. She was better yesterday.

Please Mama, help me make her well. If only you were here, she won't be sick this long. I know you can take care of her. Make her well Mama, she already want to go to school. I can't take her to the hospital, I don't have any money. I know they would confine her if I take her to the doctor.

Make her well Mama, please.


I hope Angel continues to get well....

Dear Mama,

Angel got me nervous, as her fever seems to be on and off this weekend. That is not a good sign isn't it? I didn't allow her to go to school today so that she can rest here at home. I've checked her temperature every hour or so, and so far her temperature ranges from 36 to 37 degrees. Still, I made her take her medicines for the day.

She said she wants to go to school tomorrow. She doesn't want to be absent for another. She is very active in school, as I have written to you before. Hopefully Mama, she doesn't get high again until tomorrow. She is already sleeping now.

Help me take care of her Mama. I hope she can feel your love again.

Take care of yourself too. I miss you.

I love you Mama.


Friday, July 11, 2008

Angel has fever...

Dear Mama,

I have to turn on the computer and log in on the internet so that I could write you a letter. I'm sorry Mama, but Angel has fever. Although it is just starting, I already made her drink medicine. She is sleeping right now.

She seems to be fine when they arrived home (Angel & Remrem), and was pretty happy while we were having lunch. Discussing everything they did in school, she even got a perfect score in HEKASI! Although she said she was sent to the clinic this morning because she got dizzy, her temp then was 37.5

I thought she was just fine, she even ate ice candy after lunch. But at around 3:00 in the afternoon, she said she feels cold. I was asking her to sleep then, when I held her forehead, she was quite hot. I immediately asked her to take her medicine.

Right now Mama, she is sleeping. Fortunately, it's Friday today. She can rest for today. I hope she's well when she wakes up. If only you were here Mama. I'm sorry, I'm trying my best to take care of her. I promise I will.

Take care of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Angel is active in school

Dear Mama,

Just want to tell you that Angel is very much active in school today. She joined the Young Writer's Club, and today she said they are going to write an article regarding Global Warming. She is also an assistant leader in their P.E. subject. I'm just so happy for her. She also says her teacher like her writing style very much. I guess, writing runs in her blood.

Speaking of writing, last week Edgar took a qualifying exam in his school newspaper. I was surprised because we don't know him to be that much expressive as far as words are concern. But he took the exam, and that alone makes me proud of him. I hope he qualifies and be part of the newspaper.

Ralph on the other hand is still on his old ways in his studies. Not much effort, yet not too lenient. I would say though that he has improved this year. He better be, he is in college now.

So far, the kids are fine Mama. Studies and health are okay. How I wish you can see them now. They would be much better if only you were here.

I guess I should end this letter now before I go on that note again. Please take of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Saturday, July 5, 2008

Sa Ugoy Ng Duyan

Dear Mama,

It's exactly one week now since we have transferred to this house in Marisol. So far, we're fine. Although, I don't know about next week since we've exhausted all our finances and I still don't have a job.

Anyway, this letter isn't about that. This letter is about a video slide of your pictures that I made, for us to remember you by. I am uploading it here, so that you might see it too.

I used Aiza Seguerra's version of Sa Ugoy Ng Duyan as the music background, since it sings of a child's longing for her mother... that's how we feel right now Mama. We really miss you Mama. That's why as we look at these pictures, we remember all the happy memories that we had.


I hope you liked it Mama.

Take of yourself. I miss you.

I love you Mama.


Thursday, July 3, 2008

I dreamt of you last night...

Dear Mama,

You know what? I dreamt of you last night. Nothing special nor spectacular about it. It's just that, you're there! You were with me... like old times. As if you never left at all.

We were just there... together. The two of us, with the kids. Just spending time close to each other. It felt so good... so peaceful... and I was so happy. IT WAS SO REAL!

Then the phone rang... it was somebody who knows you. So I gave the phone to you. And you were there, talking on the phone... while I was just looking at you. Seeing you smile... I miss that smile.

That's how my dream ended... while looking at you talking on the phone... smiling. I was so happy, just seeing you. Thanks for visiting me Mama.

Take care of yourself.

I love you.


Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Playing 'piko' with Angel and Ralph

Dear Mama,

This afternoon I played piko with Angel. Ralph, who already finished cooking our dinner also joined us. We had much fun, although I easily got tired. I was able to take pictures of Angel while playing, but Ralph doesn't want me to take his picture. Afraid that I might post his picture in the internet.

Although we were having fun, I was still worried. Edgar came home late today Mama. It was almost 7PM when he arrived. He said he sent me a text message saying that he went with his classmate who was having his birthday today. Although I didn't receive the message, I just let him be. At least he got home safe.

Then we stopped playing and prepared for dinner.

That will be all for now Mama. Please take care of yourself.

I miss you Mama.

I love you.