Sunday, June 29, 2008

New address....

Dear Mama,

I'm sorry for not writing to you for quite some time, it was only now the internet connection has been transferred. We just moved in at Ate Let's house here in Marisol Mama. We moved in last Saturday, although things are still a little messed up here. I have lots of garbage you know.

Angel is very happy with the house, specially her room. I gave her the master's bedroom, finally she now has her own room. The two boys, Ralph and Edgar also has their own room. But in the meantime, we are all still sleeping at Angel's room. We haven't finished fixing our things.

Like I said, Angel is very happy, so are the boys. They now have a yard they can play on, Angel looks forward to gardening, and a nice dirty kitchen for Ralph to practice more on his cooking. They finally had a decent house to live in. I only wish that you were still here with us to share the children's joy.

I know, I haven't fulfilled my promise to you. I wasn't able to provide a 'real' house for you. I'm sorry Mama. If only I knew, I had talked to Ate Let earlier so that at least you were able to live in a real home. I wish there was something I could have done then. I'm sorry Mama.

Take care of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Tuesday, June 24, 2008

An almost interview...

Dear Mama,

Today, I almost had another interview. Ate Let referred me to her friend who is the Controller in Holiday Inn at Clark, she told me that they are in need of General Accountant. I have been referred and I was expected at 3PM today.

I was hesitant Mama, I'm beginning to get tired to these. I'm sure you know that. But I went still, because of Ate Let. I came at around 2PM, Ate Let's friend was nowhere in sight. Instead, it's the HR Head who talked to me and just got my resume. I will be called after they evaluated it. Oh well... I've heard that line before.

When I fetched Angel this afternoon, she told me she fainted during their morning assembly. Although she seems to be fine as we were walking home. I told her she need to eat more during breakfast.

I guess that will be all for now Mama. Take care of yourself.

I miss you Mama.

I love you.


Saturday, June 21, 2008

I miss you...

Dear Mama,

I really don't have anything to say...

I just want you to know that I miss you

Take care Mama.

I love you.



Friday, June 20, 2008

How are you?

Dear Mama,

How are you? I hope you're fine. Another week has passed, I survived it. Unemployed and all. Ralph's getting more responsible now, I'm glad. He wakes up earlier than me to cook the breakfast. Edgar's studying his lessons daily, and of course so is Angel. She is still enjoying her new school.

Just attended the PTA at Holy Family this afternoon. There were few parent attendees on Angel's class, that's why I became the Auditor. It was more of an appointment, rather than an election. There were only 8 of us and only 6 positions to fill in. I guess that's better than the secretary position they're giving me before.

I can't say anything more... I miss you. I thought of you the whole day today. The times we used to share... the laughters... our songs... playtime with kids.

I miss you Mama... I really miss you. How I wish I could see you again.

Take care of yourself. I love you.


Saturday, June 14, 2008

The week that just passed...

Dear Mama,

A week has already passed and I haven't received any call from Subic yet. It seems that it is really now a 'lost cause'. I guess they have already found a more qualified applicant, in spite of the assurance given me that I would be back for a final interview.

Ralph on the on other hand was somewhat disappointed with his schedule this week. Last Tuesday which was supposed to be their first day of class... classes at Holy Angel started at 1:00PM, his class was in the morning. He was already dressed and ready to go to school. He was very frustrated, because he was so excited of his college life.

But he was very good this week, because he woke up early to cook breakfast for his brother and sister. We take turns actually, although lately, he wakes up earlier than me. Thursday was another disappointment for him because they, again, have no class. I told him next week is a regular week and he will have all the school days he can handle.

Angel on the other hand was very upset last Friday. It used to be that when I pick her up from school, she was happy and smiling. Yet last Friday, she looks tired, upset and grumpy and wants to go home as fast as she can. It was because of the clubs in her school, they were asked to join a club. Problem is, they were asked to look for the club.

She said, she got tired going up and down the stairs looking for clubs she can join. She was frustrated that she now talks of how bad and disorganized her school is, when last week she was telling me that she finally found the school that she like. I just told her that next week, the school will fixed all the problems that occurred on this club thing. Upon arriving home, she fell asleep. She was really tired.

Can't tell much about Edgar, he was his usual complacent self. Just living his life on a day-to-day basis. He doesn't even tell me his schedule. Every time I asked him what time is his first subject, he can't tell me. Oh well, I can't do much about him really, we both know that he is my 'mini-me'.

I guess, I have already told you so much, although nothing really is significant. We miss you Mama. I always think of the days when you were still here with us. I really miss you. Take care of yourself Mama.

I love you.


Thursday, June 12, 2008

Papers are in...

Dear Mama,

The papers for Canada already came, actually I have them since last week. Forms, guidelines, employment letter... the only thing needed are the documents that would be coming from me.

I just need to fill up the forms, complete the required documents, and submit everything to the Canadian Embassy. If everything goes smoothly, we will be off to Canada in no time at all. Although, I know it is not really that fast and easy.

Ralph is still hesitant to go... so is Edgar. To be honest, I too isn't really keen on going, but it seems that there is really no other option left for us. I can't get a job here and the business isn't really doing well.

I really wish you can guide me Mama, I really don't know what to do. I wish you can intercede for me so that I can be enlightened and be able to make to the right decisions.

I really miss you Mama, how I want to talk to you... and embrace you once again. Please do take care of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Monday, June 9, 2008

Wish I knew what's next...

Dear Mama,

I'm at it again... lost and confused. All those anticipation, and then... pffftt... nothing. And now, I don't know what to do again. It's really difficult when you have so little options.

Right now Mama, we are fine. I mean at least I can provide for the daily needs of the kids, only because I was able to get the checks from Philhealth. But that would be only good for a few days now, as school has started. There will be more expenses now. Oh well, things have been worse before, yet we survived right?

I just can't help but be anxious. Maybe because I really have no one to whom I can blabber away and talk nonsense too. I really miss you Mama. How I wish I can talk to you again... really miss you.

Take care Mama. I love you.


Friday, June 6, 2008

School days

Dear Mama,

School days has started, and Angel looks good in her new uniform (as always). She's very happy now that she's going to school again. I've never seen her this lively and excited. I'm glad I was able to enroll her this year.

To be honest, I crammed on her books, uniforms and other school materials. As I haven't been doing anything for last weeks in preparation for her schooling. Books just got covered today, notebooks aren't covered yet and even unlabeled! I just completed acquiring her uniforms. Still the disorganized me. I guess I'm still not used to doing these things.

Anyway, I'm glad everything's all taken care of now. One thing bothering me though is if I would continue to work in Subic. I'm having second thoughts about it Mama. I don't think I can leave them, yet if I stay I won't be able to provide for them. How I wish there were opportunities here too.

I guess that would be all for now, so that I could keep this letter (for once) positive. Take care of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Monday, June 2, 2008

After the interview...

Dear Mama,

This time, I got positive response from the interview. I probably have a chance on this one... which makes me worry (always the worrier in me). Like I said, it will be in Subic, Olongapo and I would have to leave the kids here in Angeles.

I have actually thought of relocating the whole family there, but they are already enrolled and classes are about to start... which makes me even worry. I keep on talking to Ralph if he can handle his siblings, to which he always respond positively.

Angel is keen on me working away from them. She said that I should not worry about them. I really don't know. Here comes an opportunity and yet, it starts another source of concern for me.

Next week would be my final interview. And if the Japanese employer and I comes to terms, I might even start next week too. How I wish I'm sure that I'm doing the right thing. If only you were here with me so I can ask your advice, you were always good in handling my worries.

Take care of yourself Mama.

I really wish I could talk to you... I miss you.

I love you Mama.