Monday, May 31, 2010

Had fun watching with the kids

Dear Mama,

This afternoon, I was finally able to buy a new printer and a DVD-ROM drive for the computer. After dinner, Angel said they want to watch a movie because they haven't watch any movies since my CD-ROM was broken, and so we watched one of our favorite movie -- The Gods Must Be Crazy.

They had fun, Mama. They were laughing so loud. I remembered when I was watching the movie with you. You were laughing so loud too. And it is but natural because the movie was  funny. I really wish I could do this with the kids more often, Mama. For one, it is much cheaper than going out.

Unfortunately, I can't, because I need to work even while at home. Thankfully, they understand. We have great kids, Mama. Yes, they get on my nerves sometimes, but I guess it's all part of growing up. I know I have you to thank for raising them so well. Thank you very much.

The only problem, whenever I have fun with the kids is that, I always wish that you were still with us and sharing with our laughter. Of course, I don't show it to the kids. I don't want to dampen they joyful spirit. I just keep it to myself.

But I really miss you, Mama. I do.

I guess that will be all for now. Take care of yourself now, Mama. I love you.


Wednesday, May 26, 2010

I forgot the fruits

Dear Mama,

Every meal, the kids and I usually have conversations and we talk about the happy times when you were still with us. It was always nice to reminisce those memories, Mama. All the love you have shown us and how you took care of the kids when I was still working in Makati.

Suddenly, Angel recalled that there used to be fruits in the house everyday when you were still here. Just then, I remembered that I am not buying fruits lately. The last fruit that I bought was a banana from the neighborhood sari-sari store. That was more than two months ago, I believe.

How could I forget that! I'm sorry, Mama. I know that the market was out of your way then from the school where you teach. Yet, you always managed to go there just to buy fruits for the kids.I guess, that's one difference of you not with us anymore. There's really no substitute for your care, love and thoughtfulness.

I can't fill that void. I'm trying my best, Mama, but I know I just can't do it.

I'm really missing you terribly, Mama. I need you. I wish I could talk to again and tell you everything that I'm going through lately... yet, I know it won't happen.

Take care of yourself, Mama.

I love you.


Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Happy anniversary, Mama

Dear Mama,

Happy anniversary!

Do you still remember how we started? You were hesitant, but you wanted to help me then, you thought I was brokenhearted. That's why you said yes. I hope you did not regret that decision, Mama. I knew that what you felt for me then was just sympathy. That's why I tried really hard to prove myself to you.

And I'm glad you saw it, Mama. That was why you choose to be with me forever.

Thank you, Mama. Thank you for giving me the chance. Thank you for allowing the love to grow in your heart and being the best girlfriend a boy could have, and eventually being the best wife a husband could ask for. Thank you, Mama. Thank you for your love.

Happy anniversary, Mama. I love you.

I miss you, Mama.


Sunday, May 16, 2010

Edgar's enrollment tomorrow

Dear Mama,

I was about to sleep when I remembered that I haven't talked to you for quite a while. I'm sorry for that Mama. I'm just getting disoriented lately, again.

Tomorrow, I will be enrolling Edgar. He is in his fourth year now, Mama. He and Angel will both be graduating this school year. Ralph would need three more years to finish his course. I will also be enrolling Ralph tomorrow. Angel is already enrolled. I enrolled her last week, Mama. Tomorrow, I'll be buying her books.

It's difficult, Mama. Doing all these things without you helping me. I must admit that I'm still not used to it. I am just lucky to get by. I don't know how long though.

Well, I guess that will be all for now. Take care of yourself, Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Thursday, May 13, 2010

Getting ready for the new school year

Dear Mama,

The new school year is almost here. I have already enrolled Angel, Ralph will see if he can enroll tomorrow, and Edgar's enrollment will be on Monday.

I am barely making it, Mama. I am really exhausted, physically, mentally, and emotionally. I hope I can still go on, Mama. I'm sure you can hear me every time I call your name. I apologized for those disturbances, Mama. I know you should be resting, but I can't help it.

I don't know what to say. I miss you, Mama. If it weren't for the kids, I would have been you by now, but I know that is not what you want. That is why I'm trying to hold on, even though I almost want to give up most of the time. I'm trying, Mama. I do.

Well, that would be all for now. Take care of yourself, Mama.

I love you.


Saturday, May 8, 2010

Happy Mother's Day, Mama

Dear Mama,

Happy Mother's Day! It's our third mother's day without you. I know you are already resting now. And while you are already far from us now, we still do not forget all the love you have given us, Mama. The kids will grow up fine because of the love you have shown them.

Thank you very much for everything, Mama. Happy Mother's Day!

I love you, Mama... I miss you.


Friday, May 7, 2010

Another birthday

Dear Mama,

It's another birthday. I've just grown a year older... and I'm still missing you.

I love you Mama.

Please visit me on my birthday.

Take care.


Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Ralph's qualifying exam

Dear Mama,

Tomorrow, Ralph will take his qualifying exam. I hope he does good, Mama. He's been seriously reviewing these past few days. He needs to pass the exam for him to continue his accountancy course, Mama. Please pray for him.

I'm losing zest again, Mama, I don't know why. People don't see it, but I have to 'drag' my feet just to be able to continue everyday. I'm tired, Mama. I wish I could rest.

That's all for now, Mama. I really don't have anything nice to say. Take care of yourself, Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Sunday, May 2, 2010

Just another letter

Dear Mama,

I really don't have any exciting news to share. I just miss you. How I wish I could really talk to you and say all these things personally. I have a lot of things to say, nonsense maybe, but I'm sure you will listen to them, Mama. You always listen to me.

By the way, Ralph is not with us tonight. He is staying in his classmate's house for their group study for the qualifying exam. I hope he makes it so he can continue in his chosen course. Guide him, Mama.

Nelia's interment would be on Tuesday. Unfortunately, I can't attend to it, Mama because I can't afford to be absent from because I will be deducted. It's enrollment time again and I need every centavo I can save. Now, I can appreciate my work, without which, I might not be able to enroll the kids, Mama.

I miss you, Mama. I hope to be with you soon. Take care of yourself.

I love you, Mama.