I'm failing, Mama. I'm not worthy to look after the kids. I failed you again, Mama. I'm sorry.

Dear Mama,

Why do I feel so alone and unworthy? I feel so empty, Mama.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

Hi! How are you? I've been meaning to write you these past few days, but every time I tried to, I didn't know where to start. I don't know what to write... or how to say what I want to say. I don't understand what I feel lately Mama, or why I am feeling this way. Lately I am feeling so alone... so lost... so empty. I do not want to entertain it as much as possible, but it's like a nagging itch.

I wish I still have you here with me, Mama. I miss you.

I love you.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

We were able to celebrate Angel's birthday yesterday. It was just a simple but a whole day celebration, Mama. In the morning, I prepared beef nachos for our brunch. I also prepared "tiramisu" before we left home to watch a movie. After watching the movie, we went to a Korean restaurant as requested by Angel. When we arrived home in the evening, we then ate the refrigerator cake I made before we left.

I was glad we were able to celebrate Angel's birthday, Mama. Not as big as she deserves it to be, you know party and all that, but at least we had some bonding time. Ralph was with us and also his girlfriend. 

Angel will be graduating in high school this March and then enter college. Time really flies so fast, Mama. It will not be long when all three of our kids will have a life of their own. It will not be long when they will be leaving home soon. I just hope I did a decent job in raising them. I just wish I was a better father, and a mother, to them. They deserve it.

That will be all for now, Mama. I miss you, Mama. I love you.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

Yesterday was Angel's 17th birthday. We did not celebrate, Mama. I told her that we will be celebrating next week instead. She agreed because she knows payday won't be until next week. I gave her my new cellphone as a gift. She likes it, Mama. She was actually the one who told me to buy it for myself last Christmas. So I gave it to her as a birthday gift.

Mama, I am not feeling well right now. I think I have a flu and I am feeling pain on the keloid on my chest. It's been bothering me for a quite a while now, Mama. I am planning to go to the doctor but I do not know where. I've been feeling sick for the past few days. I drink lots of water, Mama.

Anyway, I don't have anything much to tell. I will rest now, Mama. Please visit me in my dream.

I miss you, Mama. I love you.


Daddy

Dear Mama,

It's the last day of the holiday and tomorrow the kids will go back to school. Ralph is already in Makati, he left yesterday to avoid the rush of people going back to Manila today. Actually, there were already a lot of people travelling yesterday. Good thing he was able to get a bus and travel comfortably. He is sick, Mama. Ralph is having difficulty breathing again. I am not sure if it's because of the smell in his room because Fluffy often stays in his room and does her thing there, or if it was due to the smokes in the air because of the firecrackers used in the New Year celebration. I hope he gets well soon, Mama. He will be returning to work tomorrow.

I will be returning to work tomorrow too, but there is really nothing to look forward to, Mama. It will just another day for me.

Anyway, that will be all for now, Mama. Take care of yourself. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy