Tatay's birthday

Dear Mama,

    Ralph, Edgar, and I went to Sta Teresita today for the birthday lunch of Tatay. Of course, it was courtesy of Ate Let who sent money so we can celebrate Tatay's birthday even though he is already in heaven. I left the house earlier than Ralph and Edgar, Mama. I went to Robinsons to buy birthday cake, which was my only contribution. Angel did not go with us, Mama.

    Edgar is already done with his antibiotics for his leptospirosis infection, Mama. Although he is now taking another set of medicines. He went to the doctor last Thursday because of the wounds on his back which were caused by fleas, cat fleas. His medicines are antiviral and anti histamine, Mama. He was not given any ointment for the wounds. Earlier this morning, he was complaining of pain from the wounds. After taking the medicine, he said he felt better.

    Mama, I hope I can find a way so I can afford for us to relocate to a more peaceful place. Although, I don't know where that peaceful place might be. Sometimes, I even think I am the problem because I react to everything. So, I'm not sure if it will be peaceful for me if we relocate. I don't know, Mama. I'm tired of all these anxiety attacks every time I am at home. I am supposed to be at peace here.

    Wish you were here, Mama.

                                                                                                                Daddy

Anxiety again

Dear Mama,

    I'm having frequent anxiety attacks again, lately.

    The renovations in the bar beside us is almost finished. I'm worried because the entrance to the new place is right beside our gate. I don't know what it is, Mama. It is part of the bar & grill, but it is enclosed separately and has a different door, which as I said is right beside us.

    Edgar said it might be a vape lounge, while I said it might be a coffee shop. I don't know which is better, Mama. I don't feel good about it.

    Add to this, the apartment unit right in front of us has started a new business again, Mama. They used to sell barbecues in 2021 to 2022, and they were a bit noisy then. Edgar was annoyed, and I was worried he might get into an argument with them. Now that they are opening again, I'm getting worried, Mama.

    I don't know how to stop this anxiety, Mama. I wanted to leave and just relocate to a different house, in a more peaceful environment, but who's to tell we won't have the same problem again.

    Sometimes, I think the problem really is in me. I always attract these things. I don't know what to do, Mama.

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Update on Edgar

Dear Mama,

    It's almost 8 p.m. here, Wednesday. Ralph left for work early tonight, Mama. He must have a lot work to do. He left earlier at 7 p.m. Good thing the rain has stopped, although there were still occasional drizzles, Mama.

    Edgar already reported for work today, Mama. He went back to the doctor last Sunday for ECG and follow up consultation. He was then advised to extend his rest up to Tuesday (yesterday). He went back to the doctor on Monday for the reading of his ECG, and it was normal. He was just advised to continue with his medicines, the 7 days antibiotic. 

    Last Sunday, Angel had her first pop-up store/bazaar experience. I accompanied her on the way to the site, Mama. Ralph booked us Lala Move to transport all her things. They joined us, Ralph and Edgar, in the evening. We stayed until around 10 p.m., and Ralph once again booked a Lala Move for us to go home. Angel had a positive experience. Although she might not have even able to break-even, but at least it was an experience for her.

    I guess that will all for now, Mama. I miss you.

    I love you, Mama.

                                                                                                            Daddy

Update on Ralph, Edgar, Angel, and me

Dear Mama,

    It's August 1st, Friday and I am on leave from work. Edgar is too, but he is on sick leave. We all went to Capas this morning to check the house of Ralph, which was supposed to be turned over to him. We left at 7:30 am, and we reached Capas at around 8:45. We had a quick breakfast before we proceeded to the subdivision to check his unit, which is a townhouse.

    We first went to the admin office, then they assisted us at Ralph's house. Upon checking the unit, Mama, I was disappointed. I was actually mad. Why did they have the audacity to present the unit to us for turn-over when the work was lopsided. It's like they are shortchanging us. If we did not accompany Ralph, he might have accepted the unit, Mama. There were a lot of things that need to be fixed. They said they will call Ralph again after fixing what we have pointed out.

    From Capas, we proceeded to Clark Museum, Mama. It was my first time to be there. From the museum, we had lunch in a nearby restaurant which was a bit pricey, Mama. Had I known that, I would not have agreed, but it was Ralph's choice and he's paying. After lunch, we proceeded to SM where Edgar had his follow up consultation at Maxicare.

    He first went to Maxicare yesterday, Mama. He had undergone a series of lab procedure - x-ray, urinalysis, and blood test. The results were discussed to him today. He has an infection, Mama. Something that is related to leptospirosis, although it's not exactly that. He was prescribed antibiotics, Mama.

    Right now, he is in his room, and he is hot again, Mama. He was okay this morning when we were in Capas, Clark Museum, and in SM Clark. For some reason, he is having fever every evening. He is taking bioflu around the Clark, Mama. He doesn't want to be taken to the hospital. Please help me make him well, Mama.

    Meanwhile, Angel is now preparing for a bazaar she will be joining, Mama. One this Sunday, and another one next weekend. She'll be selling used clothes, and some artworks, Mama. I hope she'll get positive experiences from these, It will be her first time, Mama. Although she's been planning to do that for a long time now. The other organizers she talked to before weren't very responsive. 

    As for me, nothing much, Mama. I still worry about a lot things. Even though I'm trying my best to hold myself, I cannot control it. I'm having anxiety all of the time. I don't understand it, and I'm hating myself for it. I want it stop, but I don't know how, Mama.

    I guess that will be for now, Mama. Please make Edgar well, Mama. Please guide our children. I'm sorry I was not able to take care of them well. I know, things would have been different if you were here.

    I miss you, Mama.

    I love you.

                                                                                                        Daddy