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Thursday, March 14, 2024

My quarterly doctor's visit

Dear Mama,

    I went to the doctor this afternoon for my quarterly exam. I brought my laboratory results from last week for his reading. I asked what SGPT is because it was the only one in my lab test that was high, and he said it refers to the liver. He was wondering why it spiked. He asked if I have been drinking alcohol lately, I said I was only drinking beer occasionally, and far intervals in between.

    The doctor removed my medicine for cholesterol, Mama. He said it might be the one causing it. Apparently, it was one of the side effects of the medicine for cholesterol maintenance. 

    He also gave me antibiotic for my cough, Mama. Because I mentioned I've been coughing since the first week of March, and he said it's been too long, so he gave me a prescription for antibiotic. And you know how antibiotics are, Mama. They cost an arm and a leg. I already bought them on my way home. I was not able to buy any of my other medicines, Mama because I have no enough money left. Anyway, I still have some left here at home.

    I guess that will be all for now, Mama. I hope this cough will end soon. It's very annoying, and oftentimes embarrassing when I can't hold it when I'm in public.

    I really wish you were here still with us, Mama. I miss you.

    I love you, Mama.


                                                                                                    Daddy

 

Tuesday, March 5, 2024

Sick leave today

Dear Mama,

    I did not go to work today. I called in sick, Mama. Rather, I texted in sick. I've been under the weather since Saturday evening, Mama. I started coughing that night, and it worsened on Sunday. But I had to report to work on Monday because otherwise I would be required to get medical certificate because it's after a weekend. 

    I think my feeling worsened at the office because the a/c was so cold. I had fever Monday night, but I still reported back to work on Tuesday. And again, Mama, I felt worse. As soon as I arrived home yesterday, I lied down to rest. I was not able to do the laundry. I had body pains all over, Mama. When Edgar arrived home from work yesterday, he was also not feeling well. He too, immediately lied down.

    Edgar went to work today, Mama while I opted to rest. Otherwise, I might spread the virus at the office. I hope they won't require me to submit medical certificate because it's only just one day. My cough has gotten worse, Mama. I drink lots of water, because my throat feels so dry.

    I wish you're here now, Mama so you can take care of us. I miss you, Mama. Especially in times like this.

    I love you, Mama.


                                                                                                        Daddy

 

Saturday, March 2, 2024

Nanay's 94th birthday

Dear Mama,

    We celebrated Nanay's 94th birthday yesterday and today at Morong, Bataan. It was a sort of Dela Cruz family outing slash reunion. Koya Boy and Ate Let usually comes home from Guam and Canada every year for Nanay's birthday. This year they decided to celebrate it via overnight stay in a resort in Morong, Bataan.

    It was Ralph and Edgar who coordinated with their cousins for the preparation, including the share in the expenses. It was a good break for the kids, Mama. We arrived home this afternoon. I immediately did the laundry to lessen the dirty clothes because the last I did the laundry was Wednesday afternoon.

    That's all I can share for now, Mama. Wish you were here, I'm sure they would have requested for your relyenong bangus.

    I miss you, Mama.

    I love you.


                                                                                                    Daddy


Wednesday, February 28, 2024

Back at dreaming again

Dear Mama,

    Here I am dreaming again. Because I am done with the Area joint clubs' meeting and Area speech contest, I am back at dreaming again in releasing my original songs, Mama. I hope it will finally come true soon.

    I've been asking for the process, Mama. A fellow songwriter told me the step-by-step process on how to go through it, and suggested studios he went to in recording his songs. An old companion in KFC then also sent me a message and offered to arrange my song for free.

    I guess there's no turning back this time, Mama. I hope you're proud of me.

    I miss you, Mama.

    I love you.


                                                                                    Daddy

 

Monday, February 19, 2024

How can I?

Dear Mama,

    It's eating me again. How can I uncover what I've been hiding deep inside, Mama? How can I tell our children? Will they still accept me once they knew the truth? Should I tell them?

    I don't know what to do, Mama. This one burden that I have been carrying all these years. I don't know how long I can still hide it.

    Help me, Mama.


                                                                                                    Daddy

 

Friday, February 16, 2024

How can I keep myself calm and at peace?

Dear Mama,

    Just finished our Toastmasters meeting via Zoom. It's past 10pm now, Mama. I'm about to sleep, but I thought I'll write a short letter. 

    Edgar did not work today, Friday, because he has fever when he came home yesterday. He still has fever when I came home this afternoon, although I think right now he is no longer as hot as he was this morning. He's taking medicines round the clock, Mama. He is already sleeping now. I hope he feels better soon. 

    The constructions in the grillery beside us is already finished and they have officially opened, Mama. They are not as loud as the previous ones that used to be there, but there are vehicles parked in front of our house right now. I guess this will be how it will be in the days to come. And it's making me anxious, Mama.

    If only it's easy just to move away from here, but we don't have the money to do that. Also, because of my experience here, I feel that there is no guarantee I won't be encountering the same experiences in other places if we relocate. I know, Mama... I'm crazy.

    It's really so hard when you have no one to tell these things to. I wish you were here, Mama.

    

                                                                                                    Daddy


Wednesday, February 14, 2024

Valentine's day

Dear Mama,

    It's Valentine's day, and I do not know if I should greet you a happy valentine's day. This day will never be the same for me since you left us exactly 16 years ago, Mama. I understand why you had to go then, Mama. You've been fighting for us for so long, and you deserved to rest.

    I'm sorry for speaking in this tone again, Mama. Anyway, the children and I just arrived home. We ate at a nearby eatery, just within the neighborhood, Mama. Because while I don't like to celebrate this day, it would be unfair for our kids not to. I also bought a valentine cake for our Angel, Mama. She liked it.

    I don't know what to say in my letter. Please guide me, Mama. Please smile for me.

    I miss you, Mama.

    I love you.


                                                                                                Daddy

Monday, February 12, 2024

Not a good update

Dear Mama,

    Something's moved. Something has changed in the grillery beside us. They continued working again on their makeshift gate beside. Looks like they'll be making a proper gate, and that means their entrance will be right beside us.

    I don't know how this will impact my anxiety but just imagining the noise they will create already makes me anxious.

    Right now I don't know what do, or even what to think. I still don't understand why this grillery has been allowed to open right beside us.

    I'm feeling weak, Mama. I wish you were here.



                                                                                                    Daddy