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Tuesday, July 7, 2015

Dear Mama,

Hi. I'm about to sleep, just thought of writing you a letter before I go to bed, Mama. Edgar is not here, he will be sleeping at his classmate's house. They are working on their thesis. He'll be going home tomorrow morning. Angel's in her room, I also told her to rest because she needs to wake up early tomorrow.

I hope I won't get sick, Mama. I'm not feeling well. It was not a good day for me today. I feel tired, drained, sad, mad, stressed, everything! I hope tomorrow will be a better one.

Will stop writing here, Mama. Take care of yourself. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.


Daddy


Friday, July 3, 2015

Dear Mama,

Angel is going to have a college acquaintance party in August. She would be needing a dress for the occasion, and of course, she needs to be made up and all other things necessary for that event. I was trying my best to help her, but she wouldn't cooperate. It's like she doesn't need my help. Maybe it's because I am a man and I really cannot do anything to help her on this one... which could probably be true.

I wish I could tell you more right now, Mama. I wish I could tell you everything that I feel and everything that is going on in my mind right now. 

I think I need to stop now. Take care of yourself, Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

Sunday, June 28, 2015

Dear Mama,

I'm about to rest in a while. Tomorrow's the start of another week, although I really do not have anything to look forward to. Ralph left after lunch today, he was able to ride a bus immediately as soon as he got to Dau Terminal. Although after that, he never sent a message. I hope he is fine.

By the way, she responded. She was not hostile, she was nice. I sent her another message and she replied again. I hope she has already forgiven me, Mama. I just want to make amends for my all sins. I just want peace in my heart. I know I won't be able to make up for all my shortcomings, but I will try my best, Mama.

I wish I could see you and talk to you in my dreams, Mama. I really need to.

Take care of yourself. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Saturday, June 27, 2015

Dear Mama,

I just sent a message to someone from the past, I don't know if she would reply or how she would respond. I just want to make amends to my past, Mama. It took me a long time to gather the courage to do it. I know you would understand, but I am not sure if she will.

I hope I did the right thing, Mama. Guide me.

Daddy

Friday, June 26, 2015

Dear Mama,

I'm having coffee right now. It's 5:15 a.m., Angel and Edgar are still sleeping. Ralph is not yet here, he said he'll be going home today. Maybe he'll arrive later within the day. Nothing much to say, Mama. I just wish I was having this coffee with you right now.

I miss you, Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Thursday, June 25, 2015

Dear Mama,

Why do people hate me? What am I doing wrong, Mama? First, they befriend me and then all of a sudden, they don't like me. Am I a bad person? A psycho? What is it with me, Mama? I don't remember doing anything to hurt or harm others. In fact, I am always looking out to help others, even going out of my way sometimes.

It really sucks to be alone at this time, Mama. I wish you're here. I miss you, Mama.


Daddy

Sunday, June 21, 2015

Dear Mama,

Hi! The day is almost over. I'm  about to retire in a while, I'm just finishing up this bottle of beer so I could sleep fast and easy. I was able to cook spaghetti today and we had it for lunch, Mama. Angel said it was good. I also think it was good, Mama. Again, like before, it was meaty. Anyway, the kids are used to it, and I think that is how they like it, since I first cooked spaghetti for them. But of course, it is still nothing compared to your cooking, Mama. I really miss it.

Ralph, as I've mentioned did not go home, so we miss him today. But he called this afternoon. He said he just arrived at their apartment. They had another outing, in Batangas this time. I'm sure he enjoyed himself, although he sounded tired. So I told him to rest after we talked, Mama.

Tomorrow's the start of another week, and I hope it will be a good week for us, Mama. Honestly, I do not what to expect anymore. Sometimes, I just go with the flow. As long as I am able to provide for the kids' needs, I'm good. I think that is really what is important now, as I have promised to you, Mama.

Well, that will be all for now, Mama. Take care of yourself. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Saturday, June 20, 2015


Dear Mama,

Tomorrow's Father Day. I told Angel I will be cooking spaghetti tomorrow. Unfortunately, Ralph will not be coming home today. He said they will have another outing. I hope he will enjoy. From the looks of it, he is really enjoying himself, Mama. Like what I told you before, he loves the independence that he is having now. I guess that is good for him. At least now, I have I one less kid to worry. Of course, I will still be here every time he needs me, Mama.

As for Edgar and Angel, they still have a long way to go in their studies, especially Angel. Although I can feel that they are starting to get independent now. It won't be long now and I will just be a shadow to them.

Mama, if only I am even half the father I am supposed to be. I know, I still fail when it comes to being a father. I wish I could take care of ALL the kids.

Anyway, I think that will all for now, Mama. Take care of yourself. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.


Daddy