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Friday, October 31, 2014

Dear Mama,

Why am I so gullible? Why do I let people run over me? Is it wrong to trust people?

I wish you're here, Mama. I need you.


Daddy

Friday, October 24, 2014

Dear Mama,

I woke up at 2 a.m. and I cannot sleep anymore, it's almost 3 a.m. I'm feeling better now, Mama but I am still bothered by cough and occasional headache.

I don't know if I should be thankful, bothered, worry, or excited. I have an opportunity for another company and I don't know if I should grab it or stay put for a while. I know I should be thankful, Mama. Not everybody at my age will always have opportunities like this come to them. As always, my decision should be what would benefit the kids most. I just wish you are here Mama... at least to hug me and hold my hands.

I miss you, Mama. I love you.


Daddy

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Dear Mama,

My whole body aches right now. My back aches, my head aches, my joints ache. I  think I'm having the flu, Mama. I wish you were Mama so you can take care of me.

Visit me tonight, Mama. I need you. Make me well, Mama. I miss you.

I love you, Mama.


Daddy

Friday, October 10, 2014

Dear Mama,

I just got a confirmation of my appointment as the Team Leader after almost a month, unfortunately the effectivity will be on Monday, October 13. It's funny though that I have been assuming the responsibility even before I was confirmed, I thought it will be retroactive. Oh well, I guess it's better late that never.

I hope you're proud of me, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Saturday, October 4, 2014

Dear Mama,

This morning I was able to secure the finals exam permit of Edgar. I was able to pay his tuition fee balance in full. Of course, that was because I borrowed money with interest like I told you yesterday, Mama. I'm just glad Angel's exam was moved to November, otherwise I really wouldn't know what to do. After Edgar's finals, I know I should be thinking about his enrollment for second semester and also Angel's permit. That I need to do while paying for the loan I got. I'm sorry, Mama. I really have no other option at this time other than to borrow money. I will try my best to be prudent without really sacrificing the kids' welfare, Mama.

Right now, I really wish I can hold your hand and embrace you. I really need you by my side, Mama. I am trying to be strong, but I know things will be easy if you were only here with me. I miss you, Mama. I need you.

I love you.

Daddy

Thursday, October 2, 2014

Dear Mama,

I'm sorry, I had to resort to borrowing money with interest again. I really have no other option this time, Mama. I have no one to turn to and Edgar's final examintation will be next week. I only have until tomorrow to pay for his balance in tuition fees. I hope this will not start another trend for me, Mama. I honestly wish that this is just a one-time deal and I won't have to resort to borrowing again to cover up loans. I promise Mama, I will not do it unless there is still something I can do.

I'm really sorry, Mama.


Daddy

Monday, September 29, 2014

Dear Mama,

Angel left me a note this morning, she said she won't go to school today because she's not feeling well. I did not wake her up and just let her sleep. She said she was feeling dizzy yesterday, I hope she will be fine and this absences won't affect her grades.

Edgar did not sleep the whole night. I found him this morning still working on their magazine. I hope he won't get sick, Mama. He's been very busy these past weeks. Ralph, I guess, is fine. He said he is finally decided and will stay in SGV for while. I respect his decision. He will learn a lot there.

I am excited Mama. My second book Plethora is now finished and is now available online. Initially, it will be available through Create Space, but within 5 days it will also be available in Amazon. I am nervous, Mama. Will somebody actually buy my book online? Will they appreciate it? I think I am even more nervous now than I was when I published REFLECTION. Wish me luck, Mama. I need it.

If only you were here, I'm sure you will be proud of me. I miss you, Mama. Please take care of yourself.

I love you.


Daddy

Saturday, September 27, 2014

Dear Mama,

Yesterday, Ralph treated us to lunch in SM Clark. I thought he had extra money. When I asked him, he just said because it's payday. I appreciate the gesture, Mama. I wish he would not have to spend much and just use the money on his needs. Anyway, we had a good time yesterday Mama. Nobody got upset or mad for all the teasing that happened with the three kids. I hope it will always be that way, Mama.

I got another situation with Angel, Mama. She said she would like to study in San Fernando because the course he wanted from STI is only offered there. However, she said she doesn't like travelling everyday and she would like to stay there and just rent a studio-type apartment. I hope she knows what she's doing, Mama. I am inclined to give in to her. She needs my trust for her to gain independence. I just hope I'm ready.

As for Edgar, he's still busy in his school activities and projects. I have reason to believe that he is turning out to be a good leader, Mama. He seem to have that take-charge attitude and always want to do things perfectly. I wish all his efforts will be rewarded soon.

In two week's time, it will be his finals, Mama. I hope there's a windfall coming so I can pay for his tuition fees. Anyway, I'm still fighting, Mama. Some good things will come from all of this, especially when I see how Ralph has turned up. Things will get better soon, I guess. Well, that will be all for now, Mama. I wish I can hug you right now. I really could use one. I miss you, Mama. Take care of yourself.

I love you, Mama.


Daddy