I'm sorry for what happened...

Dear Mama,

I'm really sorry for what happened to your tomb marker, and it's even sadder that I discovered it on your birthday. I really felt bad about it. I can't even protect your memories, Mama. I'm really sorry. I am trying to do something to make the people who did that pay.

After seeing that Mama, I was having second thoughts on whether to continue with the celebration. But as I looked at the kids, and that Ralph would have a visitor, I went on as planned and prepared the foods that I said I would. I was just hoping that my sad disposition wouldn't affect the outcome of the food I cooked.

Well, from the looks of it, Ralph's friends did say that the spaghetti tasted good. They also brought birthday cake for you, Mama. Although I ran short of the spaghetti sauce, with still lots of pasta on hand.  I guess I still need to learn on how to determine the quantity of the sauce in relation to the pasta.

I hope you liked what we did, Mama. Our modest way of celebrating your special day.

Happy birthday, Mama! I love you.

I miss you so much!

Take care


Daddy


p.s. I'm really sorry for what happened, Mama. Please forgive me.

Happy birthday, Mama!

Dear Mama,

It's your birthday! We'll be cooking spaghetti and preparing other foods to celebrate your special day. In a while, we'll be going to La Pieta to visit you, Mama.

Happy birthday, Mama! I love you and I miss so you much.

Take care, Mama.


Daddy

Your birthday's near

Dear Mama,

Advance happy birthday, Mama. Yes, it's your birthday again, and of course, we will celebrate it. I am planning to cook something instead of just buying palabok or just going out. I don't know what the kid's prefer though. I hope I can cook, Mama.

We miss you, especially on this occasion. Christmas is almost here too... and we're going to celebrate it without you. Sometimes, I still feel it's unfair. Why did He take you away from us early. But I know it's better for you, Mama, you needed to rest. But I really miss you.

Anyway, I'll stop here. I just want to greet you an advance happy birthday. Take care of yourself, Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Please help me say the right words...

Dear Mama,

I am having problem regarding Angel's school. The deadline for the submission of application at the special science class is on November 24, which is also the same day of the releasing of cards at Holy Family. I asked Angel to talk to her teacher to have her grades released earlier so we won't be late at SSC. Unfortunately, the principal said they won't do that and instead asked her to tell me to just talk to SSC.

You know SSC do not allow extensions and late applications. Even when you were here, they did not allow that, even if they were your co-teachers. Angel tried to explained that to their principal, but she won't bulge. Tomorrow, I will try to talk to her teacher, and maybe to the principal, I hope I can say the right words and not get into argument with the principal, Mama. Please, help me tomorrow.

I knew you would do it better if only you were here. I just hope I can talk sense to the principal, Mama. Please help me.

Take care of yourself, Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

failing...

Dear Mama,

Why do I feel like I'm failing? As father to our kids... as a person...

I'm tired Mama... and lost too.

I want to be with you.


Daddy

Depressed again...

Dear Mama,

Depression is hitting me again... and for a lot of reasons! But don't worry Mama, the kids won't be affected. They will still be taken care of. It's just so hard to have these feelings and you have no one to talk to.

I will not say them anymore one by one because you should be resting. I hope this feeling will be over soon... or better yet, I hope to be with you very, very soon.

Take care Mama. I miss you so much.

I love you.


Daddy

Just got home...

Dear Mama,

Just arrived home from La Pieta. Could have stayed longer if not for the impending rain, and Edgar has a project to finish. Hope he can finish it tonight. It really feels good to be there with you, Mama. Even if there were lots of people and the place was crowded, I still feel peaceful knowing that I was there near you.

I promise to come back some other days, Mama.

Take care of yourself. I miss you, Mama. I love you.


Daddy