Roller coaster

Dear Mama,

It's been a roller coaster ride for me lately, although there were only few that can be considered up. Honestly Mama, I'm really confuse and do not know what to do next.

I will be jobless start Februay and I don't how I feel. Fortunately, a former boss sent me PM and asked me if I can join him as the company that we used to work together is re-opening. I do hope that will push through, Mama.

Now, I just don't what to do.

Wish you were here, Mama. I miss you.

I love you.

140 BP

Dear Mama,

I had a check-up today because of headache and nape pains. When they took my BP, it was 140/100. I wasn't even aware that I have a high BP. The doctor said it was type 1 high blood. Fortunately, Mama, my BP normalized after I was administered medicine.

The doctor advised me to monitor my BP, Mama. I guess it's all part of aging, plus the stress and depression that I have been getting lately. I really I can live through this, Mama. I really wish I could.

I really miss you, Mama. If you were only here, you could at least hug me when I'm feeling down. I really miss you.

Take care of yourself, Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

I don't know what to do....

Dear Mama,

I don't know what to do. I'm getting lost again. Soon, I will be out of job. I hope I could survive this for the sake of the kids... I hope I could stay sane.

...could really use your hug now, Mama. I miss you.


Daddy

P.S. I love you Mama

Tired

Dear Mama,

I'm tired and I haven't done anything yet. It's only 5 a.m. and I do not want to go on.

I really miss you hug on times like this, Mama.


Daddy

Help me make Angel well

Dear Mama,

Please help make Angel well so we can celebrate her birthday. She needs you now, Mama. Please let her feel your love. Help me Mama, please.

Daddy

Angel's 13th birthday

Dear Mama,

It's less than 24 hour before our baby will become a teenager. Angel is growing up, Mama. Now, I may not be able to protect her always. I hope time won't come when we'll have misunderstandings because of her choices. I'll do my best to take care of her, Mama. You know how I love our baby.

As for the celebrations, Angel doesn't really want anything. Maybe we would just go out, she said she wants to eat spaghetti, so I'll take her to the spaghetti house in Marquee Mall tomorrow. I haven't bought any gift for her though. Hope I can find one today.

That's all for now, Mama. Please take care of yourself. I miss you very much, Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Easy first day

Dear Mama,

The first day of 2011 went well and easy. I guess it was only because I was very busy and preoccupied. As you know, we went to Parañaque and Novaliches on January 1.

I thought we won't be complete on new year, Mama. Ralph came late on new year's eve. He came home actually past 12 midnight. He went to his friend's house and was invited by his friend's father for a little drink. I'm glad he was able to make it home safe with all those firecrackers and celebrations on the street.

I hope this year will be better for the kids, Mama.  As for me, I don't know Mama. I'm just tired. I'm literally dragging my feet. Wish I could go where you are now.

Take care of yourself, Mama. Sorry for my whining again. I miss you Mama.

I love you.


Daddy