Should I still have a book launching, Mama?

Dear Mama,

My birthday's almost here, that means the book will be out soon, but I still don't have the resources for the book launch. I have already moved the formal book launching to a later date, Mama. I am still not sure if it will push through. I am even not sure if I wanted to have one.

You know there would be lots of skeptics who will say, "Who's that?!" I don't even know if I even deserve to have a book launching. Things are really difficult when you're alone. If only you were here...

I'm sorry, Mama. I just feel so nervous and anxious. I don't know what to do. I really wish you're here, Mama. I need you.


Daddy

p.s. I love you, Mama... and I miss you so much.