The year is almost over

Dear Mama,

    It's December 27 now. 2023 is almost over. A few more days and we will start a new year. Honestly, I don't know what to feel, Mama. I'm glad were done with 2023 who brought in a lot of challenges and hurdles, although I have to admit there were also a lot of triumphs along the way, too. I really do not know what to expect in 2024.

    Ralph is having a number of interviews for the last few days, Mama. He is looking for a new job as he was removed from his current job. His work will end on the 15th of January, that's why he is looking for a new job, Mama. I hope he gets hired before the 15th. Angel is also without job right now, Mama. Not sure if she will be looking for a new one or she will focus on her online business. Edgar is still with his current company.

    I hope things will get better for us in the new year, Mama. I really want to get away from here because I cannot control my anxiety. It's like anything can happen here anytime, Mama. Although, I know that I cannot be sure if I will have peace and quiet if we move to a new place. If I will have my way I'd like to move to somewhere secluded and remote. Unfortunately, that won't be possible, Mama. We all need to work. Especially me, because I still need to provide for our kids.

    After the new year, it will be Angel's birthday, Mama. Our baby will turn 26 next year. Time really flies very fast, Mama. My only wish for her, and for all our children, is to have a bright, safe, and secured future. I feel that it won't be long and I'll be gone soon. The problem is I haven't prepared enough for them. I'm sorry, Mama.

    I hope I will see them all succeed before I pass away so I can rest in peace.

    That will be all for now, Mama. I miss you.

    I love you, Mama.

                                                                                                    Daddy 

Merry Christmas, Mama!

Dear Mama,

    It's December 24, Christmas eve now. Less than 20 minutes before Christmas. We already had our early Noche Buena, and we also opened our gifts already. Just like in previous years, Edgar was the one who cooked our food. Although we only had pork and ham tonight, and also the ube halaya ordered by Ralph.

    Sorry we still were not able to hold our traditional Christmas party, Mama. Still disoriented and still suffering from anxiety to prepare for anything. 

    We still had fun with our exchange gifts, Mama. And we also had lots of stories shared while we were eating - from Christmas to non-Christmas related topics. You know how our kids can get so random, Mama. At least we were still able to celebrate Christmas, even if it's just a simple noche buena. I hope next year I'll be able to stand back up and prepare for our Christmas party.

    I miss you, Mama. Especially in times like this.

    I love you, Mama.

    Merry Christmas!

                    

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Happy anniversary, Mama!

Dear Mama,

    Happy anniversary! Today could have been our 32nd anniversary, Mama. I'm sorry, we were not able to celebrate it. All 4 of us got sick one after the other. First it was Angel and Edgar last week, then on Monday it was Ralph. He went for check up last Tuesday. And then finally, me.

    I felt cold last Wednesday when I came home from work. I felt weak I immediately went to bed as soon as I arrived home. And Thursday, I went on sick leave, Mama. My temperature was 38.14 yesterday. I did not want to be absent from work because I have no more leave credits, but I have no choice, I might spread the virus to my officemates.

    Angel and Edgar are better now. Edgar has already finished his medicines, while Angel was given additional medicines when she went for check up to get medical certificate. Ralph also has his medication. I, on the other hand, is taking only paracetamol. I did not go for check up, Mama.

    I have no more fever now, but I still feel weak, and I have cough. I hope I'll feel better tomorrow. Maybe we can have a late anniversary celebration sometime next week when we are all good. 

    That's all now, Mama. Happy anniversary!

    I miss you, Mama.

    I love you,

                                                                                                             Daddy