Father's Day and update on Angel

Dear Mama,

    Yesterday, our children and I celebrated Father's Day. We initially went out to play bowling but there was no available lanes. So, we had coffee first while thinking of our alternative plans.

    Finally, we decided to go to the KTV instead since there was still no available lanes when we went back to check. We had fun at the KTV, Mama. Especially Angel, who has been mentioning of wanting to go to KTV for a while now. We stayed at the KTV, and sang our hearts out for 3 hours, Mama. Wish you were with us. I know you love singing.

    Another update on Angel, Mama. She was complaining of pain in her abdomen/stomach area. We were thinking of taking her to the hospital, but she doesn't want to. I was actually hesitant, because all they would do at the ER is conduct tests, without any final diagnosis, even perhaps advising confinement.

    She took pain reliever Sunday morning, Mama and she felt better. That's why we were able to go out last night. Today, she will be going to her doctor, so she can have her proper consultation. Hopefully her doctor is available. Please help her, Mama.

    I wasn't able to get her health insurance, yet. But I will be soon because I will be receiving the salary loan I applied to, to pay for her health insurance.

    Sorry for my shortcomings and failures on our children, Mama. I'm trying my best.

                                                                                                    Daddy

I picked up my lab results

Dear Mama,

    I picked up my lab results earlier, although I did not immediately look at them. I looked at them only about 30 minutes after I got home. I was afraid to see them, Mama. I was even planning just to hand them to the doctor on my check up without looking at them.

    As I slowly looked at the lab results, I felt relieved when they are still within the ideal range, Mama. However, a lot of them are borderline. Especially my blood sugar :( 

    I will just wait for the doctor's verdict when I see him next week, Mama.

    I guess I'm really getting old. The 'bonuses' are coming. I hope I will die a quick death so I won't be a burden to our children, Mama.

    Anyway, that will be for now, Mama. Can't wait to be with you soon.

    I miss you, Mama.

    I love you.

                                                                                                    Daddy

It's quarterly check up again

Dear Mama,

    It's 5:25 p.m., just finished with the laundry and done folding the clothes I washed yesterday. Although I only folded a few clothes, Mama. Most of them are not yet dry because it's already rainy season. Edgar is already preparing our dinner.

    It's quarterly check up again, Mama. I had my blood extracted for the lab test yesterday. I did not yet get the result. Actually, I'm afraid to get the results. I'm always afraid to see the results, Mama. But I'm even more afraid now. Because I am feeling a lot in my body lately. I don't know if they real or just paranoia. I will have my visit to my doctor next week. I'll bring the results then, Mama. 

    I don't know what to say. Lately I just feel... tired. I wish you were here, Mama.

    I need you.

                                                                                                    Daddy

June update

Dear Mama,

    Sorry, I wasn't able to write again for a while. It's already June and rainy season has started early this year, Mama. Good thing for Angel, it's not as hot as it used to be, although it's still hot when it's not raining.

    We just had our dinner and Ralph is getting ready for work, Mama.

    I'm back again in singing my compositions in front of public, Mama. The last one was last Sunday, June 1st, and the next one will be on July 12. My voice still cracks, Mama. I still get nervous. I'm just trying to hide it with my jokes. Wish I was really good so I can make it into another source of income. Wishful thinking, I know.

    There's another songwriting contest, Mama. This time by the popular group Bini. I am thinking of joining, Mama. I hope I can come up with a good song. This might be my chance. Not really expecting anything, but if I did not try I already failed.

    I guess that will all for now, Mama. I wish I can be with you soon.

    I miss you, Mama.

    I love you.

                                                                                               Daddy