Birthday and graduation just passed us by....

Dear Mama,

Just like that, Edgar's birthday and Angel's graduation just passed us by. We never had any celebrations, Mama. I just took the kids out for dinner. I wasn't able to buy them any gifts. I hope they understand.

That's all for now, Mama. I'm sure if you were only here, you would have cooked something for them.

Take care of yourself, Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

Not really problems...

Dear Mama,

You know it will be Angel's graduation two days from now. I know I should be happy and proud for her, I am Mama, honestly. Still, I can't help but be sad and feel sorry for her... who would prepare her for her graduation, Mama? I don't know where to take her and I don't have anyone here who can help me. I don't know who to ask, Mama. I'm sorry, I know that should not be a problem. Still, it is to me somehow.

And it's Edgar's 16th birthday tomorrow too. I've already talked to him and said we won't be able to to celebrate his birthday because it will be the day before Angel's birthday. He understands, Mama. I can't help but feel guilty, though. But there's nothing I can do. After a week, it will be his graduation too.

About Ralph, I don't know if I should be really worried about him, Mama. He seems to be getting very irresponsible lately. Maybe it's my fault, I don't know how to guide him. He would always forget about his brother and sister everytime he's with his classmates. He can't say no to them, even if we already talked about it. Everytime I try to tell him, he would be upset, and sometimes even be angry. What should I do, Mama?

Sorry to bother you with all of these, Mama. I really wish you're here. All of these would be much easier if you're still with us. Anyway, I know you are resting now. Take care of yourself, Mama. I really miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

Cramming now...

Dear Mama,

I'm cramming now. Literally. Angel's graduation is fast approaching, Edgar's birthday too. And after that, it will be Edgar's graduation again... and soon enrollment. I really do not how I can pull this one out, Mama. But I am doing my best, working double time on my writing chores, even if I know that it won't even be half of what I need. Maybe something good will happen, Mama. I don't know.

Aside from that, I'm also cramming on my talk on iBlog7. I don't knoq why I volunteered for that. I am not sure if I can do that. I hope I can. All I know is that I have something I want to share. Pray that I can deliver my topic well, Mama.

And the book too, it will be out soon and I haven't been to go around looking for sponsors on my book launch. I don't know how to ask and what to offer. I hope I can find some miracles for all of these, Mama. I wish you were here, I hope you're proud of me.

Take care now, Mama. I really miss you.

I love you, Mama.


Daddy

Sickness time again?

Dear Mama,

Last night I was sick. I think I had the flu because I was too weak. But this morning, Angel was sick too. She wasn't able to go to school. And when Edgar came home in the afternoon, he was not feeling well too. I hope it's not sickness time again, Mama. They will be graduating soon, they cannot be sick. I don't want them to miss an important part of their life.

I feel better now, Angel too. But Edgar seems to be not well yet. I hope he feels better when he wakes up in the morning. Make him well, Mama.

That will be all for now, Mama. Take care of yourself. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Excited and anxious... and really wishing you were here and be proud of me...

Dear Mama,

You know my book is coming out. You also know that I will be giving a talk next month, Mama. And a lot of other things to do... and another one that will be coming soon. I just do not know if it will happen or not.

But through all these Mama, at the back of my mind is the question, "Why are all of these happening now when you're no longer here?"

You could have been proud of me, Mama. You could have been...

I just hope that you are, Mama. Everytime you look down on me, I hope I make you smile and proud.

Take care of yourself, Mama.

I miss you.

I love you, Mama.


Daddy

Nothing to say...

Dear Mama,

I really have nothing to say... I just want to feel your embrace...

I miss you, Mama.

I love you


Daddy

Edgar and Angel's entrance exams

Dear Mama,

I just want to tell you that Edgar and Angel both took their entrance exam today for college and high school in AUF. Angel also had her interview today while Edgar will have his on Tuesday, March 15. Their results are not yet released though. Edgar's test result will be known on March 28 and it will be April 6 for Angel. I'm hoping they will pass their respective test, and hopefully, I would be able to raise the funds for their tuition fees.

I also would like to tell you Mama, that I have decided to continue with the publishing of my REFLECTION book. I am still not sure if it's a good decision or not, Mama. I just hope that others would appreciate my work and I won't be ridiculed.

That will be all for now, Mama. Please take care of yourself. Don't worry about the kids, I promise to take good care of them.

I miss you, Mama. I love you.


Daddy

Still waiting for a call...

Dear Mama,

I'm sure you already know that I had a job interview last Monday. What's special about this job is that the position was that of a writer. Yes Mama, I finally found a possible job that is within my area of interest. Unfortunately though, after 3 days, I still haven't received any call for a final interview. I really do not know if I should still wait or not.

Anyway, there's nothing I have to do. I'm just here at home, trying to write, thinking about the book and preparing for my talk. I could have done all these better if only you were still here. I surely could use an inspiration right now, Mama. I really needed a push... wish you were here.

Take care, Mama. Need to end my letter. I hope I could be with you soon. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Nanay's birthday and my book...

Dear Mama,

Yesterday we went to Nanay's house. It was her birthday and we had our lunch there. I am thankful that she is still strong, and I pray she stays that way, Mama.

I am almost finished with my book. I just have to organize the poems and add some more pages. Thus far, the only lacking page (I think) is my self-introductory page. Since this is my first book and nobody knows me. I need to finish the book and submit the manuscript by Friday, Mama. After that, I need a really big miracle to finance the printing of the book. Wish me luck, Mama.

I hope it would come true, the printing of my poetry book, Mama. But this would be more sweeter if you're still here. I wish you can be proud of me, Mama.

Well, it's late. 12:18 a.m. to be exact, and I don't like the tone that my letter is getting, so I better stop now. Take care of yourself, Mama. I miss you.

I love you, Mama.


Daddy