Why do you have to leave?

I wish you didn't have to leave. I was taking good care of you, aren't I? I was willing to give up everything, turn my back on everything, just so I can take good care of you. But why do you have to leave me? If only you were here, I wouldn't have to go through all these stupid things. I wouldn't have to feel so lonely and look for acceptance... only to be hurt, ridiculed, judged, and be treated like I'm a piece of shit! Why do you have to leave, Mama? I promised to take good care of you. I was taking good care of you!