An unexpected blessing

Dear Mama,

I received an unexpected text today from a former officemate. She read my post in Facebook about the kids being enrolled already and that my only concern are the books, uniforms and other school related expenses. She offered to help on the books. I was really surprised, Mama. It's a big help for me. I can now buy some of the books of Angel, and maybe I can buy some of Edgar's materials too.

God is indeed good, Mama. I wasn't expecting it. I was trying to budget my salary for the kids' expenses. At least now, I can breathe a little. Thank God for the help.

Ralph is okay now. His practicum units already regularized, and he just have to finish his 5th year and he would be taking his review class next year. I have big faith that he will pass and be a CPA too. I think he will make a good auditor, Mama.

I'm still waiting for the result of the PhilPop songwriting contest and the feedback from Universal Records on the song I sent. I hope they will both bring favorable result.

Anyway, that would be all for now Mama. Please take care of yourself. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Things will get better

Dear Mama,

Things will get better from now on. I promise, Mama.

Take care of yourself. I miss you.

I love you, Mama.


Daddy

Ready to move on...

Dear Mama,

I'm sorry about what I have been going through these past few days. Now I realized that it's not helping me and the kids. Worse, I'm beginning to hurt other people too. I guess it's time that I should forget about Gail and move on. No, by moving on I don't mean I'll be looking and fall in love in other girls, Mama. Because I don't think I can, or I will. She will always be the one for me.

I will just focus (again) on the kids, Mama. Work harder for their future. I will also focus on my writing and hope to publish more books. I am also dreaming (still) of having my songs produced, recorded and sung by professional singers, Mama. I can feel it coming true anytime in the near future.

I hope that this time I will be firm, Mama. I hope will not get distracted. I really hope that it's all over so I can really move on.

That will be all for now, Mama. Take care of yourself. I miss you, Mama.

I love you very much.


Daddy

All kids enrolled

Dear Mama,

All kids are now enrolled for the coming school year. The new job couldn't have come at a different time, Mama. Otherwise, I could have enrolled only one of them. It was a difficult decision, because I won;t be seeing her anymore, but I know it was a good decision... for the kids, at least.

I paid only for the entrance fees though and still have to buy some books, shoes and other school stuff, not to mention the succeeding tuition fee payments. But I can worry about those later, what's important is that they are enrolled now. I know I won't be having as much problem now as I had then.

I wanted to talk to you about a lot of things, but I really do not know where to start. How I wish I could see you, even just in my dreams so I can tell you everything. It's hard pretending to be strong, Mama.

Oh well, I guess this is life. I have to go through with it. I have no choice. Take care of yourself, Mama. Don't worry about the kids, they're fine. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Sorry Mama...

Dear Mama,

I'm so sorry. I bought myself a rather expensive rubber shoes. But they are on sale, Mama... 50% off! I hope I am not being selfish, Mama. It's the first time I bought myself a 'real' rubber shoes. You know I always buy myself those cheap unheard brands of shoes, which I have to repair every 3 months or so. Besides, Ralph, Edgar and I almost have the same shoe size, so it's not really just for me. They can wear it too, Mama. So, it's not really that to much of self-indulgence. I promise to buy them 'real' shoes too next time, Mama. I'm really sorry.

Take care of yourself, Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

Happy mother's day, Mama

Dear Mama,

It's just another one of those days that emphasizes the fact that you are no longer with us. It's been more that four years, I know. But there are moments that I still wish it didn't have to happen. Maybe I'll be a much better person if you were still here.

Happy mother's day, Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

Almost there and yet...

Dear Mama,

I know things will get better soon. I can feel it, Mama. Except that there are hurdles that I have to overcome first. If only I can pass them, I know it will get better. So pray for me, Mama. Pray for us.

Take care of yourself. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Angel is enrolled

Dear Mama,

Just had Angel enrolled this morning. It's a good thing that the minimum payment is just right for the amount of money I have left. At least, I can relax with Angel in the meantime, I only have to think about Edgar and Ralph's enrollment which will be next week, and I don't know where to get the money right now. Ate Let will not be able to help me now because she some concerns too, Ate Det is not replying to my text messages, and I am not sure if I will be able to ask for cash advance at work because I am still under probation. Will try to look for other sources, Mama. At least now, I will be able to have money to pay for loans if ever.

Yes Mama. I just turned 44 now. It's my birthday, and just like my previous birthdays, it was just an ordinary day for us. No celebrations, and we didn't even eat out. Like what I told you, my money was just enough for Angel's entrance fee in school. Ralph bought me cake, though. We ate it after dinner.

Well, I guess that's about it Mama. So far, I am not whining. I better stop before I make a start. Take care of yourself, Mama. I hope to be with you soon.

I miss you Mama.

I love you.


Daddy