Dear Mama,

We were able to go out yesterday to celebrate your birthday. It was Ralph's treat, Mama. I enjoyed it not because it was free, but because it was our son who treated us to dinner. It's not really the first time he did it, Mama. Most of the time, when he goes home for the weekends, he would treat us to lunch or dinner. 

We had a good time last night, Mama. We had pizza and pasta, afterwards we went to the mall because there was a sale. Ralph bought long sleeved polo and I bought shirt for Edgar and pants for Angel. We went home at around 11:00 p.m. because there was a long line at the cashier. Then we stopped at McDonald for sundae and ice cream. I like that the kids are really enjoying each other's company now, Mama. 

Upon reaching home, the kids already went to sleep. After resting for a while, I also slept too, Mama. I was glad that we were able to spend time together for your birthday. I really wish you were still here, it would have been a happier celebration. I miss you, Mama.

Take care of yourself always. Hope to see you soon.

I love you, Mama.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

Happy birthday!

It's your birthday again, Mama. We will be celebrating your birthday like we always do, Mama. We're just waiting for Ralph, he is still resting. He just arrived this afternoon Mama. He went to Laguna last night with his office mates where they stayed until this morning. That is why he is still tired.

I was not able to prepare anything because I also came home late after our Christmas party last night. Actually, I came home early Mama. I was able to go home at 4 a.m., because I was just hitching a ride so I have to wait for them to go home. There was no available public transportation service from where we had our party, Mama. So, I had no choice but to stay and wait. Anyway, it was fun Mama. Our group won 3rd place in the sing and dance competition. Not bad, considering that we just practiced for 3 days.

I hope Ralph wakes up soon so we won't be late. It's almost 6 p.m. Mama. I'm sure you're celebrating your birthday there too with your fellow angels, Mama.

I miss you, Mama. I wish we are celebrating together. I wish you were still here.

Take care, Mama. I love you and happy birthday!

Daddy

Dear Mama,

In a week's time, it will be your birthday. Of course, the kids and I will celebrate it, Mama. I know you will be with us then, as you are always with us. I'm excited for this year and also for Christmas. It will be lot better than how it was last year, Mama. I pray this is how it will be for the years to come.

Ralph came home yesterday at around 7 p.m. He brought home a min-refrigerator. He bought it from his girlfriend who has transferred dormitory. I can't believe he was able to travel with that refrigerator, Mama. But he looks fine when he arrived last night.

Angel has gotten less irritable these past few weeks, Mama. I hope it's because she is maturing, or maybe because her skin asthma is getting better. Let's just hope she will continue to be like that. She finally decided to use her scholarship and study in STI, Mama. She said she will take a 4-year IT course.

Edgar, has gotten crazier and more outspoken, but in a good way, Mama. He has gotten more confident. I guess it's because of the experience he was having in school. He exposed himself to a lot of extra-curricular activities, Mama. I see him to be a great leader someday, something that I think he got from you.

Well, that will be all for now Mama. I really wish I can embrace you and hold your hands again. I really miss you, Mama. Take care of yourself.

I love you, Mama.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

I woke up today with a note on the table from Angel, she is asking me to buy arrozcaldo for her brother because Edgar has fever. I hope he will be fine, Mama. He looks well last night. I will buy him some food in a while.

I guess that will be all for now, Mama. Take care of yourself. I really miss you, Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Dear Mama,

Good morning. I just came home from the supermarket to buy some groceries. Angel and Edgar are still sleeping, Ralph did not go home this weekend because they have a seminar today. I just told him to rest instead of travelling home tonight and leaving again tomorrow morning. It will be your birthday in 2-week's time, Mama. I wish you're still here with us so we can celebrate it together. If only the opportunities that are coming to me now came when you were still here, perhaps I could have taken better care of you then, provided you all that you needed, and you would still be here with us now, Mama. I'm really sorry I was not able to take good care of you then.

I think I will just continue my letter some other time, Mama. I do not like the tone this letter is going. I'm sorry, Mama. I'm just missing you. Take care of yourself, Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Dear Mama,

It looks like I made another blunder. Why do I keep on trusting people when I know they should not be trusted, Mama? Why do I keep on hoping that things will change for the better? When I ever learn, Mama? I wish I will have another opportunity to change things. I failed again, Mama.

I really need to be with you soon, Mama.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

Hi! How are you? I will be taking Angel back to the skin doctor today, Mama. Her skin asthma has greatly improved although she still has a lot of marks but she is definitely better than 3 months before. If only there weren't times that her medicines would be stopped because I cannot buy her them, but I am always prioritizing them every time I am able to get some funds, Mama. Today, she said she might ask for a medical certificate from the doctor about her skin asthma. Needless to say, I borrowed money again because payday won't be until next week, but the check-up cannot wait because Angel needs the medical certificate already.

Ralph has uric acid, Mama. His blood test was already out that was the doctor's diagnosis. His feet is still hurting and I can only imagine him having a difficult time. I hope he will feel better soon, Mama. He is too far from me right and all I can really do is lift him up to the Lord and pray for him.

Edgar is fine, it's just the first week of the second semester. I don't know what he will be busy with this second semester. He said he would be leaving the university publication and might focus on a student organization. Well, as long as he is enjoying, learning and growing Mama, I will support him.

As for me, I will be staying in my present job for a while. I just hope I made the right decision and it will be all for the betterment of the kids' future. Anyway, I said quite a mouthful again. I'm sorry Mama, I've been talking a lot lately. I am just missing you, especially this past few days where I could definitely use your calming words and embrace. Take care of yourself, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

I guess I am going stay in my present job. They gave my demand just so I will not resign, Mama. I just waited for it to be signed to be sure, because there were promises that were not really given before. If only they did this before, we would still have our original team intact. I am the only one who is left from our original team, Mama. I guess this is how it should be. I asked the kids, both Ralph and Angel said I should just stay although Edgar said I should pick the new one. Although Edgar have not really given it a thought, Mama. When I explained to him, he saw the advantages and disadvantages of staying and going away. Anyway, I do hope my decision is what would be best the kids, Mama. I really wish I was telling all this to you personally.

Ralph is now sick, Mama. His feet is hurting and has difficulty walking. I think he has gout. He already went to the doctor for a check-up and today he will get the result of the his blood test. I feel sorry for him because I cannot be with him to comfort him and make him feel well. I called him and advised him of the necessary precautions he needs to take for quick healing. Help make him feel well, Mama.

Edgar had problems with his subject again, Mama. He was not able to enroll for the second semester immediately. He got an incomplete grade in one of his subjects, but last night he said it was already okay and his final grade for the subject will be uploaded soon. He was also able to enroll but he had to talk to the registrar to allow him even if he has one incomplete grade. I don't really think it was his fault, Mama. Their teacher seems to be inefficient and disorganized. They were only told about it during the enrollment period. I was willing to write the school about it, but he keeps telling me it's not necessary. I would like to respect that, Mama.

Angel will be having their second periodical examination next week. I yesterday I filed a half-day leave just so I can process another promissory note so I can get her exam permit. Again, I was looked down as I was getting my promissory note signed. I hope this promissory note would end soon. But as of now, I have no choice, Mama. I have to suffer the humiliation every time I get exam permits for the kids.

Well, that will be all for now Mama. I think I have said quite a mouthful already. I'm sorry for bothering you this much. I hope you will visit me again in my dreams soon. I miss you, Mama. Take care of yourself.

I love you, Mama.


Daddy

Dear Mama,

I can't believe it! I was supposed to sign my contract with my new job tomorrow, but my company is stopping me from leaving and in fact giving me what the other is giving me just so I would stay. I'm surprised, Mama. I never expected it, much more ask for it.

Why would they want me to stay, Mama? Why won't they let me leave? Is it because I'm good? Honestly Mama, I don't think I am. You know that I am not, right Mama? I should be proud, but I can't. I'm overwhelmed.

Now, I don't know what to do, Mama. What decision would be best for the kids? I wish you're here, Mama.


Daddy


P.S. I miss you and I love you.

Dear Mama,

I just told my office that I would be resigning soon, I am just waiting for my contract from another company. I know it's not wise to tell them when I am still not sure, Mama. But I do not want them to be caught by surprise, at least they would know my plans and they can prepare beforehand. Now, I just hope the offer and conditions of the contract from the other company will be favorable to me, Mama.

It's funny that I feel sad again in leaving my present work when I know it would be best for the children once I got transferred to my next job. I just hope I made the right decision, Mama. I'm tired of making erroneous judgment calls, especially ones that affects our kids.

Wish you were, Mama. I wouldn't have made to many wrong decisions. I miss you,