Dear Mama,

I'm about to rest in a while. Tomorrow's the start of another week, although I really do not have anything to look forward to. Ralph left after lunch today, he was able to ride a bus immediately as soon as he got to Dau Terminal. Although after that, he never sent a message. I hope he is fine.

By the way, she responded. She was not hostile, she was nice. I sent her another message and she replied again. I hope she has already forgiven me, Mama. I just want to make amends for my all sins. I just want peace in my heart. I know I won't be able to make up for all my shortcomings, but I will try my best, Mama.

I wish I could see you and talk to you in my dreams, Mama. I really need to.

Take care of yourself. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

I just sent a message to someone from the past, I don't know if she would reply or how she would respond. I just want to make amends to my past, Mama. It took me a long time to gather the courage to do it. I know you would understand, but I am not sure if she will.

I hope I did the right thing, Mama. Guide me.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

I'm having coffee right now. It's 5:15 a.m., Angel and Edgar are still sleeping. Ralph is not yet here, he said he'll be going home today. Maybe he'll arrive later within the day. Nothing much to say, Mama. I just wish I was having this coffee with you right now.

I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

Why do people hate me? What am I doing wrong, Mama? First, they befriend me and then all of a sudden, they don't like me. Am I a bad person? A psycho? What is it with me, Mama? I don't remember doing anything to hurt or harm others. In fact, I am always looking out to help others, even going out of my way sometimes.

It really sucks to be alone at this time, Mama. I wish you're here. I miss you, Mama.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

Hi! The day is almost over. I'm  about to retire in a while, I'm just finishing up this bottle of beer so I could sleep fast and easy. I was able to cook spaghetti today and we had it for lunch, Mama. Angel said it was good. I also think it was good, Mama. Again, like before, it was meaty. Anyway, the kids are used to it, and I think that is how they like it, since I first cooked spaghetti for them. But of course, it is still nothing compared to your cooking, Mama. I really miss it.

Ralph, as I've mentioned did not go home, so we miss him today. But he called this afternoon. He said he just arrived at their apartment. They had another outing, in Batangas this time. I'm sure he enjoyed himself, although he sounded tired. So I told him to rest after we talked, Mama.

Tomorrow's the start of another week, and I hope it will be a good week for us, Mama. Honestly, I do not what to expect anymore. Sometimes, I just go with the flow. As long as I am able to provide for the kids' needs, I'm good. I think that is really what is important now, as I have promised to you, Mama.

Well, that will be all for now, Mama. Take care of yourself. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

Tomorrow's Father Day. I told Angel I will be cooking spaghetti tomorrow. Unfortunately, Ralph will not be coming home today. He said they will have another outing. I hope he will enjoy. From the looks of it, he is really enjoying himself, Mama. Like what I told you before, he loves the independence that he is having now. I guess that is good for him. At least now, I have I one less kid to worry. Of course, I will still be here every time he needs me, Mama.

As for Edgar and Angel, they still have a long way to go in their studies, especially Angel. Although I can feel that they are starting to get independent now. It won't be long now and I will just be a shadow to them.

Mama, if only I am even half the father I am supposed to be. I know, I still fail when it comes to being a father. I wish I could take care of ALL the kids.

Anyway, I think that will all for now, Mama. Take care of yourself. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

Hi! I do not really have anything new to say right now, I just wish I could hold your hands. I wish you were here.

I miss you, Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Dear Mama,

Can you hug me, please? I'm not feeling well, Mama. No, I'm not sick. I'm just not feeling good. I feel so down, Mama. It's like I will be good enough for anything or for anyone. I feel so hollow, Mama.

I wish you were here. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

Tomorrow is Angel's official first day in college. She said she is not really excited, well I am. Our baby is now really a young lady, Mama. In fact, she'll be 18 in just a few months. I don't know what to think or feel. She is already getting independent, although she still has some actions that make her the baby that she was. I really hope she could stay that way, Mama.

Edgar's well, thanks for the nebulizer that was given to us. He was able to recover before he got worse. Ralph seems to be okay. He hasn't gone home for a few weeks now. He said they were rushing some works. Me, as usual, I'm okay Mama. Nothing's changed.

That will be all for now, Mama. Please visit me in my dream. Take care of yourself, Mama. I miss you.

I love you.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

It looks like Edgar is getting his asthma attacks again. He said he is having difficulty breathing. They already have classes, Mama. I hope it won't get worse. I already bought medicines for his nebulizer, I hope it will work and help him feel better. I'm just glad that someone gave us that nebulizer machine.

Mama, can you please hold my hands while I am sleeping tonight? I need you, Mama. I miss you.

I love you.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

I had a great time with the kids today. Edgar, Angel and I went to SM Clark this afternoon to buy some school materials for Edgar, I also bought him shoes for the rainy days since it always rain during the start of the school year. Of  course, you know how it is with the kids, it's not an official bonding time if you don't treat them to a restaurant or even just a fastfood. Of course, I did just that. I took them to a hamburger restaurant and we had our tummies filled. You won't believe the amount of food we devoured, Mama. It overshoots my budget, but what the heck! The kids are happy and full, that's what important. Then we bought soft ice cream for dessert which we ate while we walked around the mall. After a few more minutes we already went home. Since we are already full, we did not have dinner anymore.

Tomorrow will be Edgar's first day of school and also his enrollment. I hope he will be able to enroll without any problem, so I will not worry about him anymore. Ralph is enjoying himself right now with their company outing. 

Well, that will be all for now, Mama. Take care of yourself. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

I just wanted to say hi before I retire for the evening. It's raining right now here. We already had our dinner. Edgar is resting, he is tired from his overnight culminating activity with his school's publication where is again one of the member this coming semester. Angel is listening to music, waiting for me to rest so she can take over the laptop I'm using. I will rest in a while.

I miss you, Mama. I hope I can dream of you tonight. 

I love you.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

Angel and I just got home. We went out today after I arrived home from work. It was just me and her because Edgar will be out overnight today, so I decided to take her out since it's Friday. I took her to a Japanese restaurant, Mama. She was very happy. I was happy too, as I watched her enjoying the food that we were eating. We were very full, Mama because I think the servings of the food was good enough for 3 or 4 persons, but we were able to eat all of it, anyway. After eating, we walked for a while around SM and then we went home.

Times like this are rare now, Mama. I do not take out the kids often anymore. I am just glad I was able to do it now. I wish I could have that time alone with Edgar and Ralph soon.

That will be all for now, Mama. I miss going out with you, too. I wish we could do it again too. Take care of yourself, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

Hi! I really do not know what to say right now, or how I feel, Mama. I feel good because I'm home with the kids, everything's well here. I just bought LPG for our cooking, that would be good for about 2 months, the kids are fine, the dogs are too. But somehow, deep inside I am bothered, anxious, worried, and I do not know why.

Lots of things are happening and not happening at the same time. I wish you're here, Mama. I need you now. 

I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

I wish I can hug you or hold your hands right now.

I need you, Mama. I miss you.

Daddy