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Dear Mama,

We are finally home, Ralph and I. We were discharged this afternoon, or should I say yesterday because it's past 12 midnight now. He is better now, Mama. His BP is going back to normal, although he is still getting occasional 130 and 140.

I hope things get better for us, Mama.

I wish you were here.

Daddy 

P. S. I love you.

Back at the hospital

Dear Mama,

     We are back at the hospital. Ralph was admitted again because of fever and infection.

     I'm really sorry, Mama.

     I think I'm losing it.

                                                      Daddy 

September

Dear Mama,

    September is not starting good for us. Although we went out last Sunday, the 1st of September, for coffee and dinner in the hope that it will bring better vibrations for us.

    Last night, however, just the second day of September, Ralph got sick. He has fever, and although he was trying not to show it to me when I left for work this morning, I felt he was weak, Mama.

    I'm not sure if it's the weather or his condition. He was already feeling cold when we left the house last Sunday. And since Sunday evening, it has been raining. Although it wasn't really that strong, it was continuous, Mama. And the wind was also blowing strong.

    He was working when I left home this morning, Mama. He was already in his computer, as he is on remote-work set up. Which was actually a good thing because he can't go out.

    Please make him well, Mama. I'm sorry he got sick again.

    We are already out of money from a lot of expenses on the cats, especially Ralph who spent the most for them. I cannot help him because I am already depleted and I'm just making ends meet through borrowed funds.

    I'm sorry I'm telling you this, Mama. I'll end my letter now.

    I'm sorry for everything, Mama.

                                                                                                    Daddy

Last day of August

Dear Mama,

    Just finished with our Toastmasters meeting, it's around 8:30 p.m. Ralph is still out, Mama. He went out with his friends. It was supposed to be last Sunday, but they were not able to push through because Ralph got sick then, he was not able to stand. That's why they reset it tonight.

    It's the last day of August, Mama. Hopefully, September will be better for us - physically, mentally, and financially. August took a lot from us. I thought we'll never make it through. Yes, we did, but not really victorious. I've never felt more defeated. Ironic, considering I've finally won in a speech contest this month.

    Edgar was also sick today, Mama. It started yesterday, actually. He said he feels acidic. Was that acid reflux? We went out for coffee last, Ralph, Angel, and I. Edgar was not able to come with us because of his condition. He was better midday today, but he still feels the acid in his stomach, Mama.

    I don't know what else to say. Please continue guiding us, Mama. Please visit me soon.

    I miss you, Mama.

    I love you.

                                                                                                    Daddy

May August end brings all the bad luck with it

Dear Mama,

    It has been a turbulent month, this August. We've been through a lot of rollercoaster rides, Mama. I am hoping September brings better days for us, especially it being the birth month of Ralph.

    I don't really know what to say, Mama.

    Last night I joined a benefit gig to raise funds for the baby of one of our fellow members in our songwriters club who is in the hospital. It was a last minute invitation, good thing I have already excused myself from our Toastmasters meeting. All 3 kids went with me, Mama.

    Ralph went to his doctor yesterday. He was given more medicines for maintenance, and they're quite expensive, Mama. He bought them  today and his total payments reached P3,500. And this will be his monthly expenses for his maintenance, Mama. I wish I can help him, but I am currently financially depleted right now. I hope we can find more sources of income.

    I guess that will be all for now, Mama.

    I miss you, Mama.

    I love you.

                                                                                                Daddy

Update on Ralph's condition

Dear Mama,

    Yesterday evening, Ralph was able to stand up and walk. He joined us at the table for dinner. He was still feeling some pain in his thighs, Mama, and was still slow in moving. This morning, he was a lot better. He is more mobile now, Mama. Although there is still some pain.

    We're still not sure if it was a side effect of his medicines, electrolyte imbalance as mentioned by medical friends from the medical world, the food we ate last Saturday evening, or a combination of all those, including Ralph's condition.

    He will have to wait for Wednesday, August 28, which is his scheduled follow up with the doctor. We tried to reach the doctor's secretary since yesterday but we haven't received any reply until now. Although it's understandable because yesterday was Sunday, and today is a holiday.

    I hope his condition will get better until tomorrow because Edgar and I will have to go back to work, Mama. 

    I'm really sorry for everything, Mama.

                                                                                            Daddy

 

Side effect of Ralph's medicine

Dear Mama,

    Ralph was not able to stand up this morning. His feet cannot carry him. He can feel them but he cannot stand up, Mama. He was fine when we were still at the mall yesterday. This morning, he fell down when he tried to stand up.

    We think it was a side effect of his medicines for his BP, Mama. I asked Angel to search for all the side effect of his medicines, and he found one of his medicines affecting the muscles. It was not mentioned to us by the doctor when they gave us the medicine prescriptions when we were discharged, Mama.

     I am worried about Ralph, Mama.

                                                                                                Daddy

Rocky crossed the rainbow bridge

Dear Mama,

    I just told you about the cats yesterday, this afternoon we received new from the vet that Rocky crossed the rainbow bridge. He was my favorite among the cats and kittens, Mama. I refer to him as the lone wolf because he was alone, and so tiny, when we first saw him. He was always running on the street and would always run away from us. He stayed in the garage when he saw there were other kittens here, too. But we still could not approach him.

    I thought he was healthy, Mama. The kids took him to the vet last week because he was not as active as he used to be. They confined him, apparently he was sick. I did not understand, Mama. The kids were telling me about their conditions. But I don't know why my brain could not process it, or would not accept it.

    We have already lost 7 kittens, Mama. Rocky being the latest. Sometimes I think if we did not take care of them and just let them on the street, they might have survived. I don't know, Mama.

    By the way, Ralph is still under medications. He'll go back to the doctor for consultation and follow up next week. 

    I'm tired, Mama. I want to rest.

                                                                                                            Daddy