Dear Mama,

I just sent a message to someone from the past, I don't know if she would reply or how she would respond. I just want to make amends to my past, Mama. It took me a long time to gather the courage to do it. I know you would understand, but I am not sure if she will.

I hope I did the right thing, Mama. Guide me.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

I'm having coffee right now. It's 5:15 a.m., Angel and Edgar are still sleeping. Ralph is not yet here, he said he'll be going home today. Maybe he'll arrive later within the day. Nothing much to say, Mama. I just wish I was having this coffee with you right now.

I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

Why do people hate me? What am I doing wrong, Mama? First, they befriend me and then all of a sudden, they don't like me. Am I a bad person? A psycho? What is it with me, Mama? I don't remember doing anything to hurt or harm others. In fact, I am always looking out to help others, even going out of my way sometimes.

It really sucks to be alone at this time, Mama. I wish you're here. I miss you, Mama.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

Hi! The day is almost over. I'm  about to retire in a while, I'm just finishing up this bottle of beer so I could sleep fast and easy. I was able to cook spaghetti today and we had it for lunch, Mama. Angel said it was good. I also think it was good, Mama. Again, like before, it was meaty. Anyway, the kids are used to it, and I think that is how they like it, since I first cooked spaghetti for them. But of course, it is still nothing compared to your cooking, Mama. I really miss it.

Ralph, as I've mentioned did not go home, so we miss him today. But he called this afternoon. He said he just arrived at their apartment. They had another outing, in Batangas this time. I'm sure he enjoyed himself, although he sounded tired. So I told him to rest after we talked, Mama.

Tomorrow's the start of another week, and I hope it will be a good week for us, Mama. Honestly, I do not what to expect anymore. Sometimes, I just go with the flow. As long as I am able to provide for the kids' needs, I'm good. I think that is really what is important now, as I have promised to you, Mama.

Well, that will be all for now, Mama. Take care of yourself. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

Tomorrow's Father Day. I told Angel I will be cooking spaghetti tomorrow. Unfortunately, Ralph will not be coming home today. He said they will have another outing. I hope he will enjoy. From the looks of it, he is really enjoying himself, Mama. Like what I told you before, he loves the independence that he is having now. I guess that is good for him. At least now, I have I one less kid to worry. Of course, I will still be here every time he needs me, Mama.

As for Edgar and Angel, they still have a long way to go in their studies, especially Angel. Although I can feel that they are starting to get independent now. It won't be long now and I will just be a shadow to them.

Mama, if only I am even half the father I am supposed to be. I know, I still fail when it comes to being a father. I wish I could take care of ALL the kids.

Anyway, I think that will all for now, Mama. Take care of yourself. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

Hi! I do not really have anything new to say right now, I just wish I could hold your hands. I wish you were here.

I miss you, Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Dear Mama,

Can you hug me, please? I'm not feeling well, Mama. No, I'm not sick. I'm just not feeling good. I feel so down, Mama. It's like I will be good enough for anything or for anyone. I feel so hollow, Mama.

I wish you were here. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Dear Mama,

Tomorrow is Angel's official first day in college. She said she is not really excited, well I am. Our baby is now really a young lady, Mama. In fact, she'll be 18 in just a few months. I don't know what to think or feel. She is already getting independent, although she still has some actions that make her the baby that she was. I really hope she could stay that way, Mama.

Edgar's well, thanks for the nebulizer that was given to us. He was able to recover before he got worse. Ralph seems to be okay. He hasn't gone home for a few weeks now. He said they were rushing some works. Me, as usual, I'm okay Mama. Nothing's changed.

That will be all for now, Mama. Please visit me in my dream. Take care of yourself, Mama. I miss you.

I love you.

Daddy