Is it my turn now?

Dear Mama,

Hi! Finally, Ralph is fine now. I almost want to ask, "Is it my turn now?" Sorry Mama, I didn't mean it to sound to sarcastic, it's just that I haven't done anything right lately. Edgar, Angel, and then Ralph. I always have to go through these kind of things.

Of course, things would be easier if you were here with us Mama. The kids would get better faster because you knew how to take care of them. I am still bungling, trying to do what I thought you would have done. But there's no substituting a genuine touch and care from you Mama.

That would be all for now Mama, lest I write something sad again. Take care of yourself.

I miss you Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

It happened...

Dear Mama,

I was really hoping it won't happen, but it did Mama. It was late, but still, it did. Ralph came home from school last night not feeling well. He said he was worse while in school, he went to the clinic and they gave him paracetamol.

After eating dinner, he went to sleep. At around 1AM, I woke up to his voice calling. He was asking for medicine, he said his head aches and he was cold. I placed my hand on his forehead and he was very hot Mama. He was almost crying in pain. We know how low Ralph's tolerance to pain is.

Why do this thing happen Mama? I thought what happened last year won't be repeated. But it did. They all got sick again. Ralph is now bed, trying to sleep.

I can only do so much Mama. How can I make him well?

I can only wish you were here Mama... if only for the children

Everything's fine now, except...

Dear Mama,

Everything's fine now. Edgar went home from school feeling well, I was afraid he'll have fever again. Thank you again for helping me Mama.

Now, my problem is about Ralph. Although it's not really a problem. Maybe it's me who needs to adjust Mama. He's getting older and trying to have his own life now, yet it seems I'm trying to hold him down.

Last night, he went home at 10PM Mama, his class ends at 9PM. I asked him why he was late, he said he took his classmate to where she needs to ride to get home. That is after having eaten out, together with some classmates.

I wouldn't really have a problem Mama, except that he didn't even bother to text. I was worried sick. Should I get used to it Mama? I don't know, I guess I should.

Take care Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

Edgar is in school now

Dear Mama,

Edgar is in school now, thanks God he got better. Last night, he wasn't able to sleep. Complaining of various pains, he felt better after throwing up. I guess it's all those toxins inside him that's ailing him. I still told him to take his paracetamol, just to be sure.

Thank you very much Mama. I know you helped me take care of the kids.

Ralph is still sleeping, although I will wake him up after writing you this letter. His class will start after lunch.

That's all for now Mama. Take care of yourself. I really miss you Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Angel is now in school, Edgar is still in bed

Dear Mama,

Angel is in school now, she's already fine. I hope she will still be while in school. But Edgar is still in bed Mama, he isn't well yet. He said he was feeling dizzy this morning. He's still hot Mama.

As of this time though (2PM), he looks better. He asked me to buy him apples. That's all he ate for lunch. He didn't eat rice, he said his stomach aches. I hope he gets well soon Mama. He's been missing 4 school days now.

That's all for now Mama. Help me take care of the kids please.

Thank you Mama. Take care of yourself too.

I love you Mama. I miss you.


Daddy

Update on Angel and Edgar

Dear Mama,

Angel seems to be fine now, her body temperature normalized this afternoon. I hope it stays that way, she wants to go to school tomorrow. Unfortunately, Edgar still has fever, although he said he will go to school tomorrow too. I said, we'll see, if he gets better tomorrow morning.

They are both asleep now Mama. Ralph, is not yet home, he'll be here anytime soon.

I hope the kids gets better soon. Thank you for helping me Mama. I really wish you were still here with us.

I miss you Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Angel is still sick

Dear Mama,

Angel is still sick. She was already fine this afternoon, now she's hot again. I'm taking her to the doctor tomorrow Mama. I hope her pedia is still holding clinic in the same place. I'm getting worried about her Mama. Please help me Mama, pray for Angel's recovery.

I was about to text our friends and ask for prayers Mama, unfortunately my cellphone load was stolen again by Globe. I still have P17 balance this afternoon, now it's zero, when I didn't text anyone. This is really irritating, especially in times like this.

Help me Mama. She will be absent again tomorrow. I hope she won't be confined. I'm really worried because it's an on-and-off fever. Make her well Mama, please.


Daddy

Angel has fever too

Dear Mama,

I hope this is not a repeat of what happened last year. When we tried wake Angel up this afternoon, Edgar noticed she feels hot. I asked him to get her body temperature, and when he did, the thermometer read 38.5.

I was worried Mama. I remembered last year when all of them got sick, one after the other. Edgar's lip is still swollen. He is still taking medicines.

Help me Mama, help me take care of the kids. I'm giving them their medicines.

Wish you were here Mama.


Daddy

Help me Mama

Dear Mama

Please help me. Edgar's lower lips has swollen due to an insect bite. We can't tell what kind of insect it was Mama, we woke up yesterday morning and his lower lip was already swollen. I have given him terramycin to apply to the insect bite and he is also gargling with bactidol. He is also taking an antibiotic now Mama, to prevent infection.

I'm worried Mama, he's been absent for two days already, and if it doesn't subside, he will be absent again next week. But what scares me is, he is mumbling now, as he tries to sleep. He said he is feeling pain near the part where the bite is.

I have already given him medicine, I was asking him to sleep, telling him the medicine will be having their effect soon. He also has occasional fever Mama.

Please Mama, help me. Help me take care of Edgar. I don't know what to do now. Help me make her swollen lips subside. Take care of him Mama. Please

Daddy

Follow-up on Angel

Dear Mama,

Like what I told you this morning, I will write about what happened to Angel in her first day alone. I was worried sick this afternoon Mama. It was already 4:30 PM and I still cannot catch a glimpse of her on the road.

I think I went outside every 2 minutes or so. Finally, at around 5PM, I saw her walking. I was relieved. Thank God, she's okay. I asked her why she was late, she said they extended their time by 5 minutes per subject.

When we were inside the house, she said that she no longer wants to go home alone and asked me to pick her up tomorrow. I asked her why, at first she didn't want to tell me and she said she can't remember.

Apparently, it was about her experience in the jeep, since she was small, others didn't give her much respect. She said, she wasn't able to sit well. That's why she no longer wants to go home alone. Which of course, I like best.

That's all for now Mama. My eyes are already closing.

Take care of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

Angel on her own

Dear Mama,

This morning, as I was taking Angel to school, I asked her if she wants to go home alone this afternoon. As expected she said yes. So, I will be letting her go home alone today Mama, I won't be picking her up. I hope I made the right decision. Please watch over her.

I'll see how it turns out this afternoon. Maybe, I will write again tonight.

Take care of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

Before I sleep

Dear Mama,

I was about to sleep, but I remembered it's been 3 days since my last letter. So I thought I'd write one before I sleep.

But I really don't know what to say now Mama, except that my wrist seems to be in pain more often lately. I hope it's not the carpal tunnel syndrome they've shown in TV before. Angel too, has been complaining of too many pains lately Mama. I hope nothings wrong with her.

I still haven't allowed her to go to school alone Mama, although she was always pitching it in indirectly. Like saying a younger brother of her classmate is already going home by himself. I still couldn't find it in me to let her go Mama.

My eyes, it seems are not normal anymore. I can hardly read Mama. Letters seems to blur, looks like I could be wearing glasses soon.

Well, father's day is here soon. But we don't really celebrate that. But I still you wish you were here.

I'll stop now Mama. I really don't have anything much to say, except that I miss you.

Take care of yourself.

I love you.


Daddy

Angel wants to go solo

Dear Mama,

This morning, while we were riding the jeepney on the way to school, Angel asked when me would I allow her to go to school all by herself. I was surprised Mama, because I thought it was just okay with her. I mean, me taking her to school every morning and picking her up in the afternoon.

She said she wants to experience it Mama. One more thing is that, her best friend lives just two blocks aways from us, which I believe is why she wanted to go by herself.

I would like to be independent Mama, but I don't think she is ready yet. I don't know. What would I tell her Mama? I am worried.

I hope you can help me Mama. Take care.

I love you.


Daddy

School has started

Dear Mama,

Angel and Edgar are already in school today. It's Angel second day while Edgar started their classes last Monday. Ralph, is still sleeping because his class will only be starting next week. Even then, his schedule will be in the evening, so he will still be sleeping longer too.

I'm still having a hard time adjusting to our new schedule Mama. Especially now that Ralph's class will be in the evening, it won't be fair for him to wake up early just to cook for Angel and Edgar, although he helped me these past two days.

I'm planning to get back to making chocolates lollipops and bars Mama. I hope I can squeeze it in between blogging so I can get additional income. Or maybe, I should prioritize them, I'll think about it Mama.

That's all I want to say now Mama, just updating you on the kids. Take care of yourself.

I miss you Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

miss you

Dear Mama,

I feel down... low... tired and confused

I really wish I could embrace right now Mama