Dear Mama,

In a little while, the kids and I will be going to the cemetery. First, will be visiting Tatay at the Holy Mary and then we will go to La Pieta to visit you. It will be the first time I'll be going there on a November 1, Mama. You know I always go there before or after the day, so as to avoid the 'crowd.' I hope today, everything will turn out right.

Mama, I hope you can help me with my problem on Angel's schedule. The deadline for the submission of application in the science high school is November 24, but the releasing of their grades is also on the same day. I hope I can enroll her in the said school. Help me say the right words to her teacher and her school, Mama.

Will be preparing in a while, Mama. Please take care of yourself. I miss you, Mama. I really do.

I love you.


Daddy

Cold Holidays....

Dear Mama,

It will be another lonely and cold year-end for us. The kids and I will once again be reminded that you are no longer with us. Your birthday is fast approaching and soon it will be Christmas. We will only remember how much we miss you, Mama.

I can't help but feel this way when this time of the year approaches. The children do not deserve this. Sometimes I wish we could have traded places. I bet they would be better off with you left with them than me.

I'm sorry, Mama. I am not blaming you or anything. I just miss you, I miss our times together. I miss someone taking care of me when I am sick, and I also miss taking care of you. I miss you, Mama. I really do, and I'm sure the kids do too.

Take care of yourself, Mama. Hope we could be together again soon.

I love you.


Daddy

A bout with fever

Dear Mama,

Here I am again, writing another late letter. You know it doesn't mean that I think of you less when I don't write as often. I just have too many things on my mind, and that I don't want to bother you with my whining and negativity anymore.

I've been sick since Friday evening, Mama. Not really sick actually, but I was not feeling well. I feel cold and weak. I was taking medicines, although sometime I forgot to follow it up after 4 hours. I still don't feel really well, but at least I am much better than I was yesterday.

By the way, I got good news for you, Mama. Ralph was included in the Dean's List this semester. I'm so happy because at last he has proven something. I am asking him to be consistent with that, Mama. He is trying his best. I can see that. I hope he stays focus.

That will be all for now, Mama. If you can visit and help me get well, I would appreciate it. I miss you Mama and I miss how you took care of me when I was sick then. Anyway, before I start again, goodbye for now, Mama. Take care of yourself.

I love you.


Daddy

Dear Mama,

Hi! I hope your are fine as you read this letter. Sorry (again) for not writing as much as I used to do. I'm just too distracted with a lot of things, I just wish I could get everything in order and focus on my priorities. Anyway, I wouldn't want to start writing negatives or whine again, Mama. I know you had too much of it when you were still here, I just hope I won't be writing any of it now.

Mama, there is another songwriting contest that I have seen, and I was thinking if I would join or not. I would like to, but I am afraid. It could just be another futile effort for me. I know, those who will join the contest are very good, and I might not even make it to the top 500. I really would like to give it a try, but I'm having second thoughts, Mama. Please help me.

That's all really I want to say right now, Mama. It's another opportunity for me to fulfill a dream... if only I can muster enough courage.

Anyway, take care of yourself, Mama. I really miss you. I love you, Mama.


Daddy

Sorry for not writing

Dear Mama,

I'm really sorry for writing to you for quite a while. Believe me, I was really trying to, but everytime I sit down and attempt to write, nothing comes to mind but whining, problems, loneliness and the realization that you are gone. I really don't want to bother you with those anymore, Mama. You should be resting.

I'm trying to cope, Mama. Fortunately for me, the kids are doing well. There are some minor problems, but nothing that we can't handle so far. Thank you again for raising them well, Mama. It's making things easier for me now.

Well, I guess I should this letter while I'm still on the positive note. I really miss you, Mama. I'm sure the kids do too, especially your cooking. Take care of yourself now. Hope I could be with you soon.

I love you, Mama.


Daddy