Happy birthday, Mama!

 Dear Mama,

    Happy birthday!

    Sorry, I know it's already a belated greeting. I was not able to write you a letter yesterday. I was already tired when we came home last night. The kids and I went out yesterday to celebrate your birthday. I proceeded to SM Clark after work to meet Ralph and Angel there. We waited for Edgar there who also proceed to SM after work.

    When we were complete, we went to Balibago where we ate, Mama. We went home after we had our fill. 

    Because we were not able to buy cake yesterday, we bought one today so we can sing happy birthday for you, Mama. I really wish you are still with us now. Celebrations would have been happier if we are complete.

    I'm sorry, I'm at it again. I just miss you.

    Happy birthday, Mama!

    I love you.

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Advance happy birthday, Mama!

Dear Mama,

It will be your birthday tomorrow. Fortunately, Ralph was able to secure a vacation leave, so we can go out tomorrow to celebrate your birthday.

I wish we can celebrate it with you.

I miss you, Mama.

Advance happy birthday!

I love you.

Daddy 

Can I hug you now?

 I wish I can hug you now, Mama

I want to rest

 Dear Mama,

    I'm tired. I want to rest already... but I can't. The children are not yet ready.

    I know it's my fault. I did not teach and prepare them well. I did not get them ready.

    I'm sorry, Mama. I failed you. I failed our children.

                                                                                    Daddy

Hanging on

Dear Mama,

    It's been 4 days since Edgar's operation. He is still feeling the pain, although he is trying his best to hide it. I hope he will get better in the following days, Mama. He hasn't really been eating much. He is limited to soft and cold diet. He said he will still not work this week. I hope this won't affect his performance appraisal.

    Ralph's gout seem to be getting worse these past few days, Mama. I am really puzzled, and concerned about his condition. I had gout too around 2010, but after taking the medicine, it was gone after a few days, and never came back. In Ralph's case, it seems to be permanent, Mama. I am worried. He already had it checked up by the doctor, but he never came back for the second consultation after they gave him medicine. Help me pray for his freedom from this pain, Mama.

    Angel is asking me to help her travel to Manila to attend an event next weekend. It was supposed to be today, but she changed her mind. I thought we will no longer go, but she asked me again today if we can go next week.

    I am not really feeling well lately, Mama. I am always full of worries and anxieties, and I do not even know why. I'm trying to ignore, but it's nagging me. I'm still hanging on, Mama... but I am already tired.

    I'm sorry, Mama. I guess I should just stop now.

    I miss you, Mama. 

    I love you.

                                                                                        Daddy

Edgar's operation

 Dear Mama,

    Edgar is back home now after his tonsillectomy. He was admitted last Wednesday, had his operation yesterday, and was discharged this afternoon. It looks he feels sore, Mama. Cannot really move that much. I guess it wasn't much a minor operation as I thought it was. I hope he recovers soon, Mama.

    I still feel down. I wish there's something I can do. I wish we can go away from here, Mama. This place is draining me. It's depleting all my resolve to be positive. 

    I really do not have much to say, Mama. Nothing positive, at least. I guess I better end my letter right now before I burdened you with my whining.

    I wish you're beside me right now, Mama. I miss you.

    I love you, Mama.

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Update on Edgar

 Dear Mama,

    Edgar will be having his operation tomorrow, and he will be admitted today. It's just a minor operation, Mama. He will be having his tonsils removed. It was his decision, after consulting with the doctor for a couple of weeks. He said he is really bothered with his tonsils, and is having problem swallowing food. He wants it done ASAP, while he has a heath card to cover for it.

    Speaking of health card, I will be getting a health card for Angel, too, Mama. As you know, she did not get the job, and so she has no health protection in case something happens. So, I will getting one for her. I have already asked and look for the most affordable but good health insurance provider. I'm just waiting for her to fill up the form.

    Ralph is still on a work-from-home set up. So, he is still staying with us right now. Although, there were surveys in previous week about going back to reporting to the office for work. Eventually, they will be going back to work soon, and he will be leaving again, Mama. He is actually looking for a job here in Angeles City. I hope he finds one.

    As for me, nothing changes, Mama. I'm trying to be positive, but every now and then anxiety keeps on eating me. It's almost getting back to normal here. By normal, I mean it's starting to get loud and noisy again. I really wish there will be more peace and quiet. If only I can live in a secluded farm, where there is peace.

    I guess that will be all for now, Mama. I will update you on Edgar's operation.

    I miss you, Mama.

    I love you.

                                                                                            Daddy