So what's for Christmas?

Dear Mama,

It will be your birthday this Saturday, November 29. Until now, I still don't know what to do to celebrate that day. After that would be our wedding anniversary on December 8, could have been our 17th year... and soon it will be Christmas.

All of these will be our first without you. Suddenly, I'm not excited on any holidays or occasions anymore Mama. I wish I could just sleep and wake up skipping these days.

Yes, we already have our Christmas Tree Mama. Although it is still lacking in trimmings and lights. But at least the children can feel the spirit... I hope. I haven't bought anything yet though.

I hope I can do something to make it special for the kids, even if at this point in time, I'm still clueless how to do it Mama. I don't know if that's really the case, or I just don't want to.

Anyway, I'll just see what I can or will do in the coming days Mama. Take care of yourself now.

I miss you Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

I wish....

I really wish I can talk to you right now Mama...

I wish...

Sad news Mama... Dang Ising passed away

Dear Mama,

Dang Ising finally gave up last night. I received a text at around 11:55PM saying that she had just passed away. This is sad news for us here, but as we all know, it's all for the better cause finally now she can rest and be with Bapang Vic.

I'm sure you already know about this Mama, because she is already there with you. You are now both at peace.

That's all for now Mama, I'll just update you about the kids later. Take care of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

Regarding Dang Ising

Dear Mama,

I just came from the hospital. We rushed Dang Ising to hospital, she was pale and I think she wasn't breathing anymore. I was in Sta. Teresita because I will accompany Tatay to the bank, we were about to leave when I heard my cousin Len shouting.

Good thing Loren was there Mama, we were able to use his tricycle. I'm telling this to you Mama because I know that Dang Ising was fond of you too. While we were there waiting outside the emergency room, I remembered how she would always encourage you then. And now, there she is, in a situation where she is about to go where you are.

When I left the hospital, they said she will be taken to the ICU. But Dr. Alfonso was honest Mama, he said that Dang Ising has a 10 to 1 chance of surviving. I pray that she would survive Mama, the way I saw my cousins there, they were not ready to let go.

But just in case she finally says goodbye, do meet her Mama. Just like you, I know she needs to rest. She has been weak since Bapang Vic died last year.

That's all for now Mama. Take care of yourself. I miss you Mama. I love you.


Daddy

It must feel good to be at peace...

Dear Mama,

I went to La Pieta this afternoon to be with you. It's nice going there Mama, because it's so quiet. As I was sitting there, I felt kind of envious with you. Because you are already at peace. It must feel good to be at peace.

How I wish I can be at peace with you too, but I know that shouldn't be my thought. I need to take care of the kids. I know I need to be strong Mama, I don't want to fail you.

When it was almost dark, I already went home. I wanted to stay longer Mama, because it was so peaceful there. Anyway, I will come some other days.

Take care Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

Suddenly I feel alone...

Dear Mama,

Are you surprised to receive a second letter from me today? I just had my lunch, Ralph's class today will be until 2:00PM and so he will wait for Angel until 4:00PM. That's why he didn't go home for lunch. And Edgar won't be home until 5:00PM.

I don't know why, I've been all alone since 6:30AM but it's like I've just noticed it now... as I was having lunch alone. Suddenly I felt so lonely... all by myself. I wish you were here Mama. I miss you.

I'm sure there will be more of this, and I don't I will get used to it. That's all Mama. I just want to tell how I feel. Take care. I miss you Mama. I love you.


Daddy

A rainy day....

Dear Mama,

The children are in school now. I am worried because storm Quinta came back, the wind was blowing heavily this morning. Unfortunately classes were not suspended Mama. I really don't want to send Angel to school but she already has too many absences before, it might affect her grades if she will have more. Please take care of them Mama.

I am now alone in the house, just finished doing some chores. Again, I'm here on the computer hoping to write more today than I did yesterday. You know what Mama? Sometimes I find me talking to myself whenever I am alone. Maybe I'm going crazy.

In two weeks time it will your birthday Mama. Advance happy birthday. I still don't know how we're going to celebrate your birthday, but I told Angel that we're going to celebrate your birthday. Pretty soon, it will be Christmas. We'll be missing you more Mama. I still remember how we have games in this season even if there were only five of us.

I'll stop now Mama before I beg you to come back, I know it's not possible. You're resting now. Take care of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

Stories from the Familia community

Dear Mama,

We just came from the ECLS of Familia today. Bro. Amor asked me to send his regards to you. You know what Mama? Sis Janet told that her cousin (or was it her sister?) in United States was asking her to get an autograph from me. Hahaha... that was funny Mama. She said, all her cousin did was talk about me cause they've seen the Rated K episode there. I guess the hype is not yet over Mama.

Bro. Noli told me again to prepare for the next ECLS classes because I could be one of the speakers. They really thought I could be an inspiring speaker. I don't know Mama, I really would love to but I'm not sure if I will be an effective speaker.

Ralph is not home yet. He is still in the Immaculate Heart Community where he is an active member. But he will be home anytime now Mama. Edgar and Angel are already having their as I am writing this letter.

That's all I can write for now Mama. I really miss you. I wish I will dream of you again soon. Take care of yourself Mama. I love you.


Daddy