Happy new year, Mama.

Dear Mama,

It's new year's eve again. Another year ends and a new begins. But still, I am not really excited Mama. I still feel like dragging my feet.

Anyway, I still need to prepare something for our medya noche, Mama. Maybe just some quick and easy fix.

That's all I want to say right now, Mama. I don't want to rant at the end of the year.

Happy new year, Mama.

I miss you... I love you.


Daddy

Nightmare... future... and disgrace

Dear Mama,

Last Monday night (or Tuesday dawn), I heard Ralph shouting. Half-asleep, I run to his room. His eyes were closed, although he was talking and asked me to stay there. It seemed he had a nightmare, Mama. So I slept right beside him then.

Tomorrow, will the homecoming Mama. The time where I will dance in front of a big crowd. I'm sorry, Mama. I had to do it for the batch. Anyway, it will the first and last time. I promise, Mama.

2010 is almost over, and soon it will 2011. I don't know what to think, what to expect. I don't even to go there anymore, Mama. I'm tired... really tired. I wish I could go to you.

I miss you Mama. I love you.


Daddy

Merry Christmas Mama!

Dear Mama,

Merry Christmas to you. We were able to hold our Christmas party even though I prepared for it on the last minute only. The party went well, the kids cooperated and participated in the activities. Edgar and Ralph sang while Angel danced. There were fewer games than last year because we removed the funniest games.

We had simple foods for noche buena, Mama. I didn't cook really. But still, we had more than enough to eat still. We have enough left for Christmas day. I really wish you were here, sharing the party with us. The children were all glad and happy when they received their gifts, and that made me happy too, Mama.

Next year, we'll still do this Christmas party and I am asking the kids to continue doing it, even I'm already gone. They all agreed, Mama. Thank you for starting tradition, Mama.

That will be all for now, it's 3 a.m. and I haven't slept yet. I can hear Ralph still awake, maybe he is still playing. Anyway, merry Christmas, Mama. Take care of yourself.

I miss you Mama. I love you.


Daddy

Christmas party in a few minutes

Dear Mama,

It's December 24 again, past 8 p.m., in a few hours we will be having our Christmas party. The kids and I are still having the party that you started. I intend to continue this even if they grow up and already have their own family. I hope they won't get tired of this, Mama.

This is just one of the ways we remember you and everything you have done for us, Mama. I hope you're watching us as the kids play the games that we'll be having. Prepared simple foods to share for the noche buena. You know I really cannot cook, and I'm thankful that the kids are not really asking for much.

Well, I better get ready. Not yet finish planning and preparing for the games. 'really wish you can join us. I miss you Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Ralph is sick again...

Dear Mama,

Ralph is sick again. Please help me make him well, Mama. It's time like this that I pity them because I cannot take good care of the kids.

I'm sorry Mama.


Daddy

Will be jobless again soon....

Dear Mama,

I won't be long and I'll be jobless again. Can't blame anyone really, I know it's all my fault Mama. Maybe I'm not really cut to supervise people... maybe I'm not really a good team player... maybe I'm not really made for the corporate world... but the truth is, I'm not really good as everybody think I am.

I'm sorry Mama. I failed you again. It will be back to blogging for me, I guess. Something that I love to do and yet doesn't really give me money to send the kids to school.

Anyway, I guess better things will come my way...

Think I'll stop now. Take care of yourself, Mama. I love you and I miss you so much.


Daddy


p.s. I could really use a hug now, Mama.

Edgar and the FGNHS-SPA are champion once

Dear Mama,

Today, the SPA choir joined another contest in Robinson's Angeles, and Edgar was included in the choir. And I'm sure you know that they won, Mama. This is the second time that they won in the said competition and Edgar was included in both group.

It's a good thing they won, Mama. If you remember, they lost last week in another competition in Marquee Mall, at least the win today boosted their ego. I can sense they felt so down in their last lost because they take these competitions seriously. One consolation for Edgar, Mama, was that he was not included in the team that lost. Although I really don't think it would've made a difference if he was included.

That's all for now, Mama. Only the good news, so as not to burden you so much with my whining. Take care of yourself, Mama.

I love you.

I miss you.

Daddy

Excited for my new book

Dear Mama,

I guess you already know by now, I have a new book coming out. Well, it's not really my book, but a collection of stories and my stories are included in those be selected to be included in the book. I hope you're proud of me, Mama. Maybe next time, it will be my own book of poems and short stories haha... here I go again with my wishful thinking, Mama.

Anyway, it's almost Christmas and I am still not prepared. Was too busy these past few days, Mama. I am really stressed, I wish I could hug you so I would feel better. I really miss  you Mama. I wish you're still with us and we can celebrate the season together.

Oh well, here I go again. I'm sorry Mama. Don't worry about the kids, they're doing fine. I promise to take good care of them, the best way that I can. Take care of yourself Mama. I really, really miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

not again...

Dear Mama,

It's that "down" feeling again... I really could use a hug now, Mama...

I miss you :(

Daddy

Ice cream for the anniversary

Dear Mama,

Just got home after having some ice cream with the kids at Mr. Frosty in Balibago. We were already full since we ate at the dance practice, that is why we just went for ice cream.

I was hoping you were with us when were there Mama.

Oh boy! Here I go again.... I miss you Mama, I really do.

Taka care.

I love you


Daddy

Happy anniversary, Mama!

Dear Mama,

It's our 19th wedding anniversary. I didn't forget Mama, I never will. It will always be the same, except that we won't be celebrating it with you anymore. I plan to take the kids out tonight after our dance practice.

I miss you, Mama. Take care of yourself.

I love you.


Daddy

Pains...

Dear Mama,

I've been feeling a lot pains lately -- headaches, irritated eyes, and the latest is that I can't seem to move or raise my legs. I'm having a hard time climbing steps, boarding vehicles. It's very painful every time I try to raise my legs. I can walk only of flat grounds, if I need to take a higher step I literally have to lift my legs. It's very painful, Mama. I'm not complaining, Mama. I just don't have anyone to tell it to.

But that's just the physical pains, Mama. I'm sure you are aware of the other pains.

Anyway, take care, Mama. I guess I will be with you soon.

I love you, Mama. I miss you.


Daddy

Angel's qualifying exam

Dear Mama,

Just arrived home from AC Science High School. Angel took her qualifying exam there. I hope she passes Mama, so she can take her secondary schooling there. Help me pray for her, Mama. Please help her pass.

The alumni homecoming is very near, Mama. I'm sure you know by now I'm going to be dancing then. Yeah, can you believe it?! Me, dancing in front of a big crowd?! I can't back out now. I guess I'll just have to go through it and live through the shame that it will bring.

Anyway, that's all I have to say for now. Wait! I just remembered! Ralph was included in the leadership training in his school. I hope he learns something from that. I just don't know how many Saturdays it would be.

That's all Mama. Please take care of yourself. I miss you Mama.

I love you.


Daddy