Sorry for not writing yesterday....

Dear Mama,

I'm sorry I was not able to write you yesterday. I was too busy studying the writing assignment that was given to me and at the same time I was also looking for some online opportunities. As you know Mama, I have already resigned from my regular job.

I'm happy that I am getting quite a number of writing opportunities on my blogs now Mama. But at the same time, I also feel sad about it. I feel like I'm polluting my blogs Mama, especially my Reflections. I wish I wouldn't write reviews there, but what can I do Mama? It's the one that is mostly getting opportunities lately.

I hope I can write more personal essays there so that at least it can still maintain its personality. It was my first ever blog Mama, and I never really planned to use it for those reviews. I never thought it would qualified.

Right now, I am working on lots of assignment. Although these are not on my blogs. I'm writing for others Mama, it's where I'm earning most. I hope I won't get tired writing.

That's all for now Mama. Please do take care of yourself. I miss you Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

I shouted again...

Dear Mama,

I'm really sorry for I shouted at the kids again tonight. I was not able to control myself. Ralph and Angel are always quarrelling even on the smallest things. I've been trying to talk to them, but they would not listen. Nobody wants to give in. I snapped.

I know I should have more control over my temper. I've been doing that Mama. I have always tried to talk sense to them, but somehow I don't have any control over them once they start to argue. I'm really sorry Mama.

I really wish I could be a better father to them.


Daddy

Am not feeling well...

Dear Mama,

I am at home right now, fortunately my internet connection was reactivated. Unfortunately, I have to go to Digitel's office to personally follow it up. It was raining when I went there... and it was cold.

Right now, I'm not feeling well Mama. I feel cold and my back aches. I sneeze most of the time. I have already taken medicine Mama. Tomorrow, Angel will be back to school after their semestral break. Edgar started their class today.

I hope I will be able to write more Mama, so I can justify my resignation from work. That way I can earn more and provide for the kids. Although lately I am getting more jobs online, I just hope they continue.

Maybe tomorrow morning I will feel better Mama. I know you will make me feel better. I will rest now Mama. Take care of yourself. I miss you Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Taking the kids to Cool Spot...

Dear Mama,

Remember Cool Spot? The most famous place during our childhood days where we eat halo-halo with siopao or chocolate cake?

This afternoon, afternoon buying new pants for cloth for Edgar's uniform, I took them there and we ate halo-halo. Angel was surprised as to how I knew that there was halo-halo there. Of course I knew, don't I?

Although sadly, there weren't any people as it used to be. In fact, we had the whole place to ourselves Mama. Fortunately, the kids liked the halo-halo. I also ordered them chocolate cake.

How I wish you were with us Mama, and we can tell kids our stories when we're eating then there.

That's all I have to say now Mama. I really wish we can share that halo-halo moment at Cool Spot with you.

Take care of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

At the I-cafe with the kids....

Dear Mama,


I am now at an internet cafe with the kids. Angel and I went here because I need to submit a write-up online, Ralph and Edgar came straight from La Pieta.


I allowed them to have time for internet too while I work, because it's been a long time since our connection at home has been cut-off. Anyway, I computed the opportunities that I got today and they were enough to pay for their internet time. Hopefully soon our internet connection would be reactivated.

We need to go home now Mama. Take care of yourself. I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

Finally, ACPUSTA has released the funds....

Dear Mama,

Finally, ACPUSTA was able to collect enough funds to pay for the benefits that was due to you and I was able to get it this afternoon. This is the last money that I am expecting, and I hope that I will be able to put them to good use.

I plan to pay for the internet fee and have my internet connection re-activated so I can do my writing at home. I also plan to buy some materials for my chocolates business. I hope I will do good this time Mama.

As for my blogging, things are looking good Mama. I hope this continues. I wish you were still here so I can share all these things to you. If only I was getting all these opportunities then, maybe I could have sustained your dialysis and medicines better.

But I know you're much better now Mama. Just take care of yourself, I promise to take care of the kids.

I miss you Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

How are you?

Dear Mama,

How are you? I hope you're fine. You know what Mama? I feel tired and I don't know why. I have to write so I would have something to submit and earn some money, and yet I can't write anything. I feel exhausted for no reason at all.

In times like this Mama, I miss your embrace... your touch. When I feel so low, somehow knowing that you're beside me, everything seems to be better. But then, that can not be. I have to accept that.

I know I can't be like this for a long time Mama. I have to pick myself up. Believe me, I'm struggling Mama. I just want to tell you how I'm feeling right now.

I guess that would be all, take care of yourself Mama. I really miss you.

I love you Mama.


Daddy

Shall continue attending the community?

Dear Mama,

We attended the second ECLS session of Familia this afternoon. Although I will admit that I like attending the Familia sessions, I'm still thinking if I should continue being a member.

Angel said I should. It's not I don't really want to too Mama, but it's a community for couples and I don't have you with me. I feel like I don't have any more business attending there by myself.

I don't know, maybe it's just me... but somehow, it's just not the same.

Anyway, I'll just see on the next days if I would still continue attending. That's all I have to say right now Mama. Please take care of yourself.

I miss you Mama.

I love you.


Daddy