Ralph is having his hands full

Dear Mama,

I don't know if it was right for me to allow Ralph to work at a very young age. He is enjoying it, I think. But he also applied to be one of the staff of their department's newsletter, and when they have a meeting, he has to be absent from work!

He is having his hands full right now, Mama. While I don't like him working, I do not agree for him being absent from work because it could affect his reputation. I am telling him to be ready, because he might need to choose one of them sometime. I hope he doesn't get overwhelmed by too much responsibility now.

And I hope, I would know how to handle and advice him, Mama. Please help me.

That will be all for now. Take care of yourself, Mama.

I miss you. I love you.


Daddy

Edgar's good grades

Dear Mama,

Edgar got his grades for the first periodical test today, and they are are quite high, Mama. He got one 84 and one 83, while the rest are all 87 and 89. He even got 95 in mathematics, Mama. But you know what, in spite of his high grades, he still ranked no.9 in their class. Meaning his classmates has higher grades.

I just told him to try to do better. I am satisfied with his grades, but I didn't tell him, Mama. So that he will strive harder, he wants to land on the top spot, I don't know serious he is, but I hope he will try harder. I'm sure, when that happens, it will boost his self-confidence big time.

But I am happy with his performance, I couldn't ask for more. Let's just hope he will work harder.

That will be all for now, Mama. Take care of yourself.

I mill you, Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

I miss your cooking

Dear Mama,

You know what? Suddenly, I miss your cooking. Maybe because we haven't been eating any decent food lately. Yes, we cook at home, but they are mostly those easy to cook, fry foods. I miss all those delicious dishes you used to cook for us, Mama.

As much as I would like to do them, I just don't have it in me. Nobody does it like you do, Mama. Your cooking is still the best.

But aside from your cooking, I miss you Mama. I really wish you're still here. I hate this feeling... but I feel lonely, Mama. I need your embrace. How I wish it could be.

Take care of yourself, Mama. I hope I'll be with you soon.

I love you.


Daddy

Nothing....

Dear Mama,

I really have nothing to say... these are the times when I wish that you are still beside me so I can just hold your hands or embrace you. I feel lonely... I miss you, Mama.

Take care.

I love you.


Daddy

Almost there...

Dear Mama,

I'm almost there, the healing process that is. I just hope I get more focused now and not be distracted of everything or everyone I see. I hope I do get to publish my book this year, Mama. I bet that would make you proud of me, and hopefully will change the impression of those people who look down on me.

I am trying Mama. I want you to be proud of me. I'm sorry if I got distracted and preoccupied these past few days. I hope I didn't lose enough time. I hope I can still catch up. My only problem now is that, there won't be you to push me this time. You're the only one who sincerely believed in me. I miss you Mama.

I have to go now, and buy some pandesal for the the kids. it's already 7:30 am and their still sleeping. It's Sunday anyway, that's why I let them stay in bed longer.

Take care of yourself, Mama. I miss you.

I love you Mama.


Daddy

Ralph's getting more serious now

Dear Mama,

Sorry if I'm not writing as much as I used to be. You know I got a lot of things on my mind lately, and to be honest, I cannot really focus. I hope I get my acts together, for the sake of the kids.

Speaking of the kids, Mama, I think Ralph is getting more serious now, since he is already working. It looks like he's going to stay longer in his job where he was hired only as temporary. I hope they will give a fair treatment. His salary is not really within minimum. He will 18 within a few weeks now, Mama. He is really coming of age. His studies isn't doing so bad, either Mama. I told him it should be his priority.

Edgar and Angel are doing well too. Edgar is getting more into the visual arts and Angel is getting active in her dance club. She's also into posing for pictures now. Perhaps she was inspired by those model-wannabes who are uploading photos in facebook. I'm tolerating her for now, Mama. Anyway, she's taking care of her studies very well.

As for me, I'm still hurting, and I think you know why, Mama. I hope this all end soon so I can go on with my life. Looks like I really don't deserve to be happy, especially now that you are no longer here. You were the only one who accepted me as who I really am, Mama. I miss you. I wish you never left me, but I understand why you have to. You need to rest.

Well, that will all for now Mama. Until my next letter. Take care of yourself. I miss you Mama, really I do.

I love you.


Daddy

It's a long week....

Dear Mama,

How are you? Hope you're doing fine. Don't worry about us, we're doing fine. I'm trying hard to cope up lately, with lots of things bothering me, but still I'm trying to manage. It's really difficult to be doing everything on your own, Mama. But of course, there's really nothing I can do about it. I guess this is what they call fate.

Angel just had their periodical test last week, Ralph had his prelims the week before, and Edgar is having his periodical test this week. The kids are doing fine in their study, Mama. They're all trying hard to do well in their studies, Mama. They are aiming to have a good grade. Let's hope all their efforts will be rewarded.

Well, I have to wrap up now. I have to prepare and take Angel to school and also get to work. Take care of yourself, Mama. I miss you.

I love you, Mama.


Daddy

I miss you

Dear Mama,

I just to say that I miss you...

Love


Daddy

Wish you didn't leave...

Dear Mama,

Sometimes I wish you didn't have to leave. Sometimes I wish you were still here with me. I'm sorry, Mama. I'm not complaining. It's just that, if only you were here, none of these things would have happened. I wouldn't have to suffer like this, I would not be going through the pains.

I was already getting well, Mama. I thought I'm already through weeping, and I can finally move on. Unfortunately, it has to happen. And I feel like it was even worse than before. I'm sorry. I'm trying to fight Mama, for the kids' sake. I promised you I will take care of them, and I will fulfill that promise. I just can't help missing you Mama. I need you here with me.

Here I go again, wishing for the impossible thing to happen. I guess I just have to wrap this up because I am not making sense again.

Take care of yourself, Mama. I miss you.

I love you Mama.


Daddy

How long?

Dear Mama,

How long would this still go on? You know I'm having difficulties carrying on. But I'm not complaining, Mama. If only I weren't foolish enough to get 'distracted' these past few days, it could be doing fine now. Unfortunately, it looks like I'm back to where I started. I'm sorry Mama.

In times like this, I wish you were still here with me, Mama. You're the only one who was always there for me. I miss you Mama.

Take care. I love you.


Daddy

Just pretending

Dear Mama,

I'm just pretending to be strong, but deep inside you know I'm weak Mama. Sometimes I feel that I can't go on. I'm sorry for letting you down, Mama. It's just too hard to be alone and without you by my side. I can't go on like this Mama.

Daddy