About our Baguio trip

Dear Mama

    The kids and I went to Baguio last Thursday for an overnight stay. Ralph had no work Thursday and Friday since they are following U.S. holidays, and it was Thanksgiving then. Edgar, Angel, and I filed our leave from work so we could push through. It was a great bonding moment, Mama. Quite expensive and exhausting, but definitely worth it. I wish we can have more time and resources for moments like that.

    We rode the boat at Burnham Park, and we also tried riding the 4-seater bike but we were not able to finish 1 hour. We returned the bike after 30 minutes only. Of course, most of the time we were eating. We tried the places we haven't seen yet the last time we went there. We were also able to buy some pasalubong at Good Shepperd. 

    It was definitely a great 2-day vacation for us, Mama. Unfortunately, it was ruined by what we saw when we got home. The griller next door put their a/c dripping tube on our side. I did not notice it, but Angel did because she saw there was water at the side of the fence although it did not rain. It was fixed when I mentioned it to the griller personnel, but it took a lot of inhale-exhale sequence for me before I heart beat returned to normal.

    Anyway, that's all for now, Mama. It would have been a better experience if you were with us in Baguio.

    I miss you, Mama.

    I love you.

                                                                                                Daddy

Dear Mama

Dear Mama,

    It's Saturday, we had our dinner. Angel is still sleeping, we'll wake her up later because she'll be working nightshift again, Mama. She's better now, although she is still taking her medications. She have to finish them. I hope she won't get sick again, Mama. I hope she learns how to take care of herself.

    Ralph and Edgar are okay, still with their respective companies. Hopefully someday they'll get to work in a better company where they can grow better.

    If you'll ask me, I'm just fine, Mama. Still struggling with the anxieties every now and then. I wish I could get rid of it, Mama. It's consuming me every time it pops up, just like right now, actually. This usually comes in every night because I am not sure if I'll be having a peaceful night or not.

    Toastmasters is overwhelming, Mama. There's so much work to do. So far I'm surviving, but I don't know how long I can go on. I hope I'll get this Area Director thing to the finish line, Mama.

    Well, that will be all for now, Mama. I miss you.

    I love you, Mama.

                                                                                                        Daddy

Please make Angel well

Dear Mama,

    Angel is sick again. Please help me make her well, Mama. I feel guilty because I went to Baguio last Friday because we had an activity in Toastmasters, as I was going home last night Ralph said Edgar took her to hospital for an emergency check up because she had difficulty breathing.

    They did not admit her in the hospital, but they gave her prescriptions of medicines to take which they already bought last night before they went home. She still went to work last night, Mama. Because they have difficulty filing and getting approval for leaves, even sick leaves.

    Angel is resting right now, Mama. Although we'll wake her up anytime soon because she needs to take another medicine.

    Tomorrow, Monday, she'll be working again in the evening. Please make her well, Mama. I'm sorry this happened. Times like this, I really wish you were here.

    I miss you, Mama.

                                                                                                    Daddy

I was tired, but did I make you proud?

Dear Mama,

    Yesterday was a tiring Saturday for me. First, we had our joint club meeting in our area. And being the Area Director, I had to oversee all of it - from the planning, preparation, up to the actual meeting which was yesterday. We had a good attendance, and all clubs were all represented. They say it was successful, but I don't know. I had lots of blunders. I just managed to survive.

    After the joint meeting here in Angeles, we went to Quezon City to attend an anniversary of another club. I was not really a part of the event but I went to accompany our Club Growth Director. After the anniversary, we went to Pasig to attend a workshop of another Division, and again I had to accompany our Director there. We were able to go home late. I arrived at our house at around 11:00 p.m.

    It was a tiring Saturday, Mama. A day filled with a lot of Toastmasters event. I really cannot believe I was able to pull off that joint meeting. I am thankful I have supportive and cooperative clubs. I really hope you are proud of me, Mama.

    Ralph and Angel are in Ortigas right now. They went to different events but they travelled together, and I believe they will also go home together later. Please guide them to safety, Mama.

    The next event I should be focusing right now is the Area Contest, Mama. It will be on February next year, but I should be already preparing for it. I hope I can pull that one.

    Anyway, that will be all for now, Mama. Please take care of yourself.

    I miss you, Mama.

    I love you.

                                                                                        Daddy

Just another letter

Dear Mama,

    It's Sunday, 8:09 p.m. As I am sitting here in front of the laptop, I still don't know what to say to you. Angel and I had coffee time earlier. We had a short talk about her plans, and her health. She just had consultation, Mama. She was required to have some laboratory examinations, which would cost quite big. So, I just said I would look for money so she can have those laboratory tests and she can go back to the doctor.

     A lot of things are really going on my mind right now, Mama, but it's all jumbled and I don't know where to start, aside from Angel's condition. I am concerned about our upcoming joint meeting with the different clubs under me, being their Area Director. I am concerned about the health of our children, who are also having some health problems. In fact, I am also feeling feverish lately. And of course, I am concerned about what will happen soon in our neighborhood.

    I wish you're here, Mama so I can say all these to you.

    

    I miss you, Mama.

    I love you.

                                                                                                    Daddy

Anxiety

Dear Mama,

    It's Tuesday now, 7:45 p.m. and Angel is still sleeping. We'll wake her up at around 8 p.m. because she will be working tonight. Graveyard shift, as usual. Although, earlier she told Edgar she won't be working because she has fever. After a while she changed her mind and told us to wake her up at 8pm and she will work, instead. Hope she'll be okay, Mama.

    I'm having anxiety attacks again right now, Mama. Nothing's really happening but I am hearing voices and some noises outside. It's triggering my anxiety. I know I should not react like this, Mama but I cannot help it. I'm starting to hate myself for feeling like this. I wish I could stop this.

    That's all I want to say right now, Mama. Please look after, Angel.

    I miss you, Mama.

    I love you.

                                                                                                Daddy

 

La Naval, feverish, and the neigborhood

 Dear Mama,

    Today is the La Naval fiesta here in Angeles City. As usual, for us it's just an ordinary Sunday, Mama. Not sure if we're going to Sta. Teresita today for lunch. I haven't heard from them, and I feel feverish right now, Mama.

    Angel already worked last night. She'll be coming anytime soon. She was supposed to report for work tomorrow, Monday but she was asked to report Saturday, instead. Probably, they realized they lack people on the floor.

    As I mentioned, it's La Naval fiesta today, so I'm expecting it will be a bit noisy around here tonight. Actually, the drinking already started last night which lasted until almost 3:00 a.m., Mama. I was not able to sleep. Good thing Ralph and Edgar were able to sleep before they started. Just thinking about what will happen tonight is already making me anxious, Mama.

    Anyway, on October 28, we will be having a joint meeting of the clubs in my area, Mama. As you know, they made me Area Director because they did not have any choice. I hope it will be a successful one.

    That's all I have to say for now, Mama. I hope I feel better soon. If only you were here... I miss you, Mama.

    I love you.

                                                                                                               Daddy

Angel is sick

Dear Mama,

    Please make Angel well. Our baby is sick, Mama. Ralph said he came home from work this morning and she was cold. She was sleeping when I arrived in the afternoon, Mama. She did not work today.

    Please help me take care of Angel, Mama.

    I need you.

                                                                                        Daddy