Dear Mama,
Yesterday, I joined another speech competition in Toastmasters. It was a Tagalog speech competition, and once again I lost, Mama. I thought I would finally win. Unfortunately, I am still a loser, Mama.
Well, I gave it my best, and a lot of people who listened said I was inspiring. Unfortunately, the final result did not prove it. I guess I will never win. I will never make anybody proud.
Wish you were here, Mama. I miss you.
Daddy
Dear Mama,
Last Saturday, August 6, I was again included in the line up of performers of our songwriters club, and I sang 3 of my original songs. I was still nervous, Mama. My voice was still cracking up, but I managed to survive. Now, I'm not sure if I wanted to pursue this or not. If only I was half as good as you were in singing, Mama.
Mama, do I really inspire other people? I have been told this a number of times, and recently someone told me again that I am one of his inspiration. I don't even know him personally, Mama. It's good that I am inspiring other people, but I do find it hard to believe. You know how I get discouraged many times, and I am doing things afraid all the time.
Anyway, I don't even know what to say, Mama. I just really couldn't believe it. I hope I don't discourage them when I rant.
That will be all for now, Mama. Will be preparing for our Toastmasters meeting in a while.
I miss you, Mama.
I love you.
Daddy
Dear Mama,
I'm sorry I haven't written for more than a month, I was not so sure what to say because I wanted to say only happy news, unfortunately, there wasn't much, Mama.
Angel already resigned from her job at the call center. I don't know what happened, she wouldn't tell me. She's also back in her therapy, I don't know if it has anything to do with her resigning from her job. She won't tell me anything. If I pressed on asking, she will get annoyed, mad, and even depressed. She's not looking for a job right now. I don't have any issue with that. My only concern is that if she has a job, she will at least have a medical insurance. But I can't force her, Mama.
Am I such a bad father that our daughter has grown distant and alienated from me, Mama? I wish I could have our old Angel back. I must have done something wrong. I'm sorry, Mama. I failed.
There was an earthquake earlier. I was at our office when it happened, it was quite strong. We all went down and outside the building. We were at the third floor. Good thing nobody was hurt. Edgar was at his work, too. He said he was okay. Ralph was working at home, he's also fine. Angel was at home, too but she was asleep. I don't know if she felt it. She's still sleeping now.
I will be performing again at the Songwriters' Night, Mama. This time, I volunteered to be added in the line up. I don't know what gotten into me. I hope I will be able to sing my compositions well. I have 2 new songs, and I'm hoping I can finish the third one in time for the SongCab night which is on August 6. Good luck to me.
By the way, I ended my term as president of our Toastmasters Club last June 30, Mama. I was able to make it through and survive. At least the club reached the highest norm which was President Distinguished Club during my term. Although, I can't take credit for that, of course Mama. But I'm just glad it's all over now.
I guess that will be all for now, Mama. I hope I can write again soon.
I miss you, Mama.
I love you.
Daddy
Dear Mama,
I'm sorry for not writing to you immediately. As you know by now, a lot of thing have happened recently. Probably, Blez is already with you now there in heaven, Mama. She went home the day after my last letter to you. She was finally able to rest, Mama. She's been battling with cancer for more than 4 years. It's just sad that her 2 children are still so small. I believe, Gab is only 8 or 7, while Heaven Grace is 6 years old.
After that, I had my public performance in Camalig where I sang 3 of my original compositions, Mama. I hope you won't mind I shared the song Smile for Me which I wrote for you. Unfortunately, I do not have good singing voice, so I'm not sure if my songs passed the audience's standards. Good thing none of my fellow Toastmasters came to watch, which was no surprise really, Mama. Ralph came to support me. Edgar wasn't able to come because she was looking after Angel who was preparing to go to work then.
Speaking of Edgar, he applied for another company and he already passed. They already gave him a contract. It was a good thing he did not accept it. I advised him not to, or at least think about it, Mama. Because the very small increase from his current pay is not worth the trade off - starting again, and work on Saturdays. Although I left the final decision to him. He is now thinking of working in Canada. He actually have contacted an agency already. I advised him to reach out to Ate Let or Julius before proceeding, so he will get better advice.
Angel is still working in the call center. I gave her an announcement of an opening in another company, but she said she will stay with her current work for now. Ralph is still in the company he transferred to last April. He is still adjusting, I believe. His gout has become semi-permanent right now, Mama. I'm getting worried about it. Hopefully, he will have it checked and have it worked out.
I guess that will be all for now, Mama.
I miss you. I love you.
Daddy
Dear Mama,
June 4 is already fast approaching, and as I've mentioned before I will be performing 3 of my original compositions on that day. I don't know why I agreed, maybe I really just wanted my songs to be heard, Mama. The problem is my voice. I don't have a beautiful voice, Mama. My fellow songwriters are all singers and are all performing in different venues. Did I make the wrong decision, Mama?
I wish I could sing well. I guess I will just have to face the consequences and humiliate myself.
I really wish you were here, Mama. I miss you.
I love you, Mama.
Daddy
Dear Mama,
I got a new guitar! Edgar bought me a guitar, Mama. It's quite expensive, but he said Ralph and Angel will share with the payments, as he used his credit card to pay for it. I guess it's really getting quite serious, Mama. I am really into writing songs now, and I will use the guitar when I perform some of my songs on June 4.
If only I am at least half as good as you, Mama. I could do justice to my own songs. Anyway, it's the message I'm delivering, I'll just add humor to my performances, and hopefully it will let me pass. I'm just glad I have an opportunity to let my songs be heard. I hope I will be able to make you proud, Mama.
That will be all for now, Mama.
I miss you and I love you.
Daddy
Happy anniversary, Mama!
First, I would like to apologize to you because as I was writing my letter last night, it did not occur to me it was the eve of our anniversary. I'm sorry, Mama. Must be the stress, the weather, and everything else in my mind. Please forgive me.
Today would have been our 36th year when you first said yes and agreed to be my girlfriend, Mama. Although it was more out of pity that you said yes because you wanted to help me. I was aware of that, that's why I did everything to prove myself to you, Mama. Thank you for the chance you have given me. You were the only one accepted me. Thank you very much. I love you, Mama.
We weren't able to celebrate today, because aside from it slipped my mind (sorry), our schedules don't seem to match on weekdays, especially today. Angel just left for work, Edgar is probably on his way home now, and Ralph is in Cebu. Will try to catch up one weekend to celebrate, Mama.
I am getting ready for Toastmasters meeting right now, Mama. It's 5:30 p.m., and the meeting will start at 7 p.m. I still have one and a half hour to prepare because I will be delivering a speech. Also trying to get things tidied up here.
That will be all for now, Mama.
I miss you.
Happy anniversary, Mama! I love you.
Daddy
Dear Mama,
I'm feeling under the weather right now. It seems like I'm going down with a flu, I hope I will be okay tomorrow morning so I can still work. The rain was heavy this afternoon, Mama. I was assisting Angel who was going to work. I went out to call a tricycle for her, otherwise she'd be late. I had an umbrella, but it was really a heavy rain, and the wind was strong. I have not taken any paracetamol yet, Mama. I just took my maintenance medicine. Maybe later, I'll take paracetamol.
Ralph is in Cebu right now, Mama. He is with his friends. He left this morning. He must be okay cause he's not sending any messages. He will stay there until Sunday.
Angel, as I've mentioned earlier, is already at work. As you know, she's on graveyard shift. She seems okay. She still had not gotten an Add A Line customer. Even though she's doing good at work, she won't get any bonus nor commendation until she gets an "add a line" call.
It's only Edgar and I right now at home, with the 3 dogs. We just finished our dinner, Mama, that's why I was able to take my maintenance medicine. Edgar is washing the dishes now.
It's still raining hard here, Mama. I hope it won't be raining this hard tomorrow at dawn so Angel can get home safely.
I will be performing again next month on our Songwriters Night, Mama. I hope I won't humiliate myself this time. I will need to buy a new guitar, so I will have something to use and not just borrow from the other members.
I guess I have said all I wanted to say, Mama. I'll be taking paracetamol in a while. Wish you were here right now.
I miss you, Mama. I love you.
Daddy
