Edgar's request

Dear Mama,

Yesterday, Edgar made a simple request for our breakfast. He requested that we have a pandesal dipped in egg and then fried/toasted. I remember that you used to always give in to these simple requests of Edgar.

So this morning, after I bought pandesal, I also bought 2 eggs, and tried to prepare it as Edgar's requested. It wasn't really that hard, but it's something that I won't ever think of doing if only EA did not request it.

I could have said no, cause we were fine with the plain pandesal. But I know it's just a simple request that you will gladly do for him, that's why I made it. Angel and Ralph enjoyed them too.

That's all I want to say Mama. I also told Edgar that I did it for him, because of you.

Take care of yourself Mama.

I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

Just finished watching movies with the kids

Dear Mama,

It's 11PM here, just finished watching all episodes of Star Wars with the kids. We started last night, and completed the set tonight. We're just taking advantage of the remaining days of vacation Mama. And I also need to return the CD's tomorrow to my friend who lent them to me, and also the VCD player I borrowed from Blez.

The kids are still watching now Mama. I think they're watching Ghostbusters. I told them I will not join them anymore because I haven't worked since last night. I need to write some for tonight to make up for my non-production yesterday.

How I wish you were with us while watching the movies Mama. You could have enjoyed it, we could have enjoyed it better if you're with us.

I miss you Mama. Take care of yourself.

I love you.


Daddy

Tired and sleepy

Dear Mama,

I'm tired and sleepy. It's already 12:19 AM, but I think I will write one more article before I retire. I hope my eyes can cope. The children are already asleep Mama.

It's less than a week now and soon they'll be having their classes again. Angel is already excited. Ralph's got evening schedule today Mama. I hope he won't have a hard time adjusting to it..

Anyway, I really don't have any news to say today. I just want to talk to you while I take a break, and say how much I miss you.

Take care of yourself now Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

The monthly prayer meeting of Familia

Dear Mama,

We have attended the monthly prayer of the Familia this afternoon. Angel and Edgar was with me, Ralph didn't come with us though, because he said they have a fellowship today in the youth community where he belongs.

Anyway, I was looking forward to the prayer meeting since it's been a long time since I have attended one.

But of all topics that have to be discussed, it's about marriage and how to make it successful. It was supposed to be fine, but as the speakers were sharing their stories, I can't help but think of you.

I am thinking now, "Do really need to be in this community?" I mean, it looks like I don't fit in anymore. It's supposed to be for couples, and yet I am alone in attending these activities.

I guess, I just miss you so much Mama. Almost everything reminds me of the times we were together. I know it's too late, but I wish I have done more to make you happy while you were still here with me.

I miss you Mama. I love you.


Daddy

Should I stop going to mass?

Dear Mama,

Yesterday, I was able to buy Angel new shoes and also a few school materials for the kids. This morning, we were fortunate to find a store which sells Edgar's uniform. At least, we won't need to have one tailored-made Mama.

I was lucky that Koya Zal gave me money so I can buy some of the kids school needs. At least, I was able to pay the electric with the money I earned from blogging, which is just enough. Next week, I hope I can buy the rest of Angel's books.

We attended the anticipated mass this afternoon Mama. But these fast few Saturdays, it doesn't really feel good inside the church.

Whenever I see the commentators, lectors, the knights, the choirs.... everything inside the church, I remember those days when we were still young and serving in the church Mama. Those times when we were both working, either in the choir or outside teaching kids in public schools.

Because of that, it seems I can no longer concentrate on the mass. All I do is recall the days we shared together Mama.

To be honest Mama, there are lots of things that reminds me of you today.

I miss you Mama.

Happy Anniversary Mama!

Dear Mama,

Happy Anniversary!

It's May 19 again, it could have been our 23rd year anniversary today. I still remember how you said 'yes' to me then... it was full of hesitation. Yes, I've felt that Mama. And I know too that you just want to help me then.

But I don't want to put such an opportunity to waste. I knew that I wanted to be with you forever. So I did everything to prove myself to you, and I'm glad you appreciated my efforts and reciprocated what I gave you.

The life spent with you was always worth looking back Mama. All those happy memories, our petty quarrels... cards, pictures, joys, pains, laughter and frustrations -- everything Mama, as long as its with you.

I know, I didn't make the 'perfect' criteria for you. I fumbled... I stumbled. Yet you accepted me, and we renewed our vow of forever.

Unfortunately, as fate would have it, forever isn't for us to spend with. You have to leave early, and for a good reason. You need to rest.

Now, that I'm alone, I can only look back and treasure those memories... memories that will stay with me forever.

Happy anniversary Mama.

I love you.

I miss you.


Daddy

Ralph is enrolled and my blogging progress

Dear Mama,

Sorry for not writing for a few days, I'm having problems with my schedules. Not really that busy, just don't know how to manage my time well.

I was also able to enroll Ralph last Friday Mama. Ate Let already sent the money for his enrollment, including our back accounts last semester. I just hope Ralph would do good in his studies, so as not to put to waste Ate Let's financial support. I keep telling Ralph that. I was also able to buy a few of Angel's books and notebooks with the money.

Another news I want to share with you Mama is that I was nominated as an emerging influential blogger this year. I know this is far from the Palanca Awards, but at least its something that proves I can accomplish something with my blogging. I have been getting feedback that I am wasting my time with my blogs.

I really don't expect to win Mama, but it's already a big deal to me. I hope you will be proud of me with this sort of recognition Mama. I just wish you're still here, so I can share with you all the excitement I'm feeling even though it's just a few votes.

That will be all for now Mama. Take care of yourself.

I miss you Mama. I love you.


Daddy

Edgar is now also enrolled

Dear Mama,

This morning, I was able to enroll Edgar. He'll be in third year now. He is lucky he was not removed from the SPA class. I told him to do better this year, because we will be having a difficult time finding for a new school in his fourth year.

Only Ralph is not yet enrolled as of now Mama. We're still waiting for the money to come. We still have a balance from last semester. Anyway, his enrollment will be on May 25, although some of his classmates have already enrolled as early enrollment are allowed to avoid the crowd on the actual enrollment dates.

I really don't have anything much to say Mama. Take care of yourself. I miss you Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Happy Mother's Mama

Dear Mama,

It is our second Mother's Day without you by our side. I don't think I have learned to live with that fact... I don't think I ever will.

We didn't really celebrate it Mama, although I took the kids to the mall today, only because there was no electricity the whole day and it was so hot in the house. I can only imagine that you were with us while we were walking in the mall Mama.

I can see different family groups, all celebrating this day with their mothers still with them. While we seem to be an odd group, two kids with a father in tow. Obviously, we really don't have any business about the occasion.

Anyway, I just want to greet you Mama, even only through this letter...

Happy Mother's Day Mama!

I miss you.

I love you Mama.


Daddy

No celebration for us today...

Dear Mama,

Today is my birthday. Of course you know that. The kids thought that I'm going to take them out today, maybe at the mall. But I didn't.

After going to the bank to do some errands, we just stayed home Mama. There was no special celebration for us today. No special meal even. Just our regular easy to cook fried food.

Yes I know it's boring Mama. So is my life right now. I don't know how to let my days pass. It's always a struggle everyday. Trying to be positive, or at least trying not to show the kids that I'm almost giving up.

It's difficult Mama. I'm struggling.

How I wish I can be with you soon.

I miss you Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Thank you Mama

Dear Mama

Thank you for making Ralph well. We woke up this morning with him already feeling okay. Thank you for taking care of him Mama.

Take care of yourself too.

I love you Mama.

I miss you.


Daddy

Ralph is sick...

Dear Mama,

I was able to enroll Angel this morning. At least I can rest from worrying for a while now knowing that she won't be stopping again this year. But I still have to work hard because I still have to pay for her next installments.

But the reason I wrote to you again today Mama is that Ralph is sick. He is vomiting, and we can't tell why. He was just fine, even after dinner. But after doing the dishes, while he was resting, he said he wasn't feeling well. Then he run to the bathroom and he vomits.

He has already vomited more than 3 times now Mama. I already gave him medicine, and bought him candies. He is trying to rest now, although he said he still feels like it every now and then.

Please help me take care of Ralph Mama. Only your touch can cure him.

I hope he can go straight to sleep so he can rest, it's almost 12 midnight here Mama.

That's all I really wanted to say Mama. Help me take care of Ralph. Thank you Mama. Take care of yourself too.

I miss you Mama

I love you


Daddy

Angel's enrollment

Dear Mama,

Tomorrow I am going to enroll Angel. She will be Grade 5 now Mama, she is really growing fast. As of late, she is getting very talkative and inquisitive again. Maybe because she's always home now, since there's no classes yet.

It's fortunate that Ate Let gave me money for Angel's enrollment, otherwise I won't be able to enroll her. She also said she will help me with Ralph's tuition fee, I just hope Ralph will do good in his school.

My birthday is almost here Mama. Nothing I want really. I just want to tell you. Of course, I know you remember.

Take care of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you


Daddy