First day of the year

Dear Mama,

It's 5 a.m. and I'm having my first coffee for the new year. It's the first day of 2021. The kids are still sleeping. I think they just slept a few hours before I woke up.

We had our medya noche last night, and all foods were prepared by Edgar. As I mentioned before, he is exploring the kitchen more lately. He plans to have his own food business. I am thinking of sending him to culinary school, for him to be more equipped. I hope I can afford it, Mama. 

I really don't feel excited about this new year. I'm sure you know why. I've been suffering because of this failure, and I can't complain because I know I deserve it.

Anyway, let's forget about that for now. It will be Angel's birthday 8 days from now, and we still have no plans. We are bot sure if we can do anything because of the pandemic. 

Well, I guess that will be all for now, Mama. Please continue guiding us. I need it, Mama. 

I miss you. 

I love you, Mama. 

Daddy 

Things are not how they used to be

Dear Mama,

The kids and I went out yesterday, the day after Christmas. We didn't leave on Christmas day itself because we were expecting there will be a lot of people at the mall. There were actually a lot of people yesterday, too. But maybe they were fewer than the other day.

Anyway, we bought some things at the department store, mostly Angel's. Then we roamed around for a while, with our face masks and face shield, of course. 

I just asked the kids out because I wanted to take them to this Japanese restaurant called Tepanya. I wanted Angel to experience it.

We had a good time, but it was not how it used to be, Mama. I'm sure you know what I mean. It's my failure that nobody knows, and it's something I have to live with. I really wish there is something I can do. I'm sorry, Mama 

If only you were here, things would have been different. 

I miss you, Mama. 

I love you 

Daddy 

It's Christmas eve

 Dear Mama,

It's already 24th of December, Christmas Eve. As I've mentioned in my last letter, I have prepared anything, and we won't be having the annual Christmas party. I'm sorry, Mama. We will be having our Noche Buena still, although it is Edgar who will be cooking our food. He is actually working in the kitchen right now, Mama.

We still don't have plans for tomorrow. Not sure if we will be going out, or just stay at home. As you know, Mama, it's not yet safe to go out. In case we will be going out, we will take all necessary precautions.

The year is almost over, and nobody knows if 2021 will be a better year. I am not excited nor looking forward to it, Mama. I am tired. Sometimes I often ask myself if the kids are all ready to be left on their own.

I'm sorry, Mama. I apologize for feeling like this again. Anyway, I'll just end my letter before I write more dramas. Merry Christmas, Mama!

I miss you.

I love you, Mama.

Daddy

It's almost Christmas, but...

Dear Mama,

It's almost Christmas, but I haven't done nor prepared anything. I have not even cleaned the house! I don't know, Mama, I don't feel excited or anything about the season. I don't know if it's the anxieties brought by the pandemic, the neighborhoods, the country, or my personal problems.

I'm sorry, Mama. I feel my batteries have been drained, and I cannot process anything anymore. Help me, Mama. I'm giving up again. 

I wish you're still here with me. 

I need you, Mama

Daddy 

Today would have been our 29th

Dear Mama,

Happy anniversary! 

Today would have been our 29th year. You could have been proud of I have achieved. We could have been so happy, and I would have been complete.

I still can't help but wish that you are still here, Mama. Especially in days like this. 

I miss you, Mama. 

I love you. 

Daddy 

Belated happy birthday!

 Dear Mama,

    Belated happy birthday!

    Sorry, I was not able to write a letter and greet you yesterday. I was too sleepy and lazy last night after we ate our dinner. So I just lied down until I fell asleep.

    We were able to celebrate your birthday yesterday, Mama, Ralph, Edgar, Angel, and I. We were completed just in time for your birthday. Although we just stayed at home yesterday because, as you know, it's too scary to go out because of the pandemic. Edgar cooked and prepared special pasta, and nacho chips according to Angel's specific diet which is little to no histamine. I bought a cake, and Ralph ordered buffalo wings from Buffalo Wings and Things, which is Angel's favorite, via Food Panda.

    We lit the candle on the cake and sang happy birthday before we ate. We enjoyed the foods prepared by Edgar, Mama. He is experimenting a lot in the kitchen lately, he surprises me. Of course, we also had a happy conversation over dinner. A lot of catching up, as well teasing, and some sarcasms in between. Indeed, Mama. The children are all here.

    It was already late when we finished, that was why I was already sleepy and went straight to bed after dinner.

    I hope we were able to make you happy with our celebration yesterday, Mama. Although I wish you were still here with us, especially when there is a celebration.

    I really miss you, Mama.

    I love you.

    Belated happy birthday!

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The children are all home now

 Dear Mama,

    The children are all now complete and at home. We left for Pasig at around 7:30 this morning and reached Ralph's dorm at around 9:30 a.m. It took us a while to bring down all of Ralph's things. Aside from his room is at the fifth floor and there are no elevators, he hasn't really completely finished packing his things, and still quite disorganized. 

    We were finished at around 10:30, but left at around 11 a.m. and then proceeded to 38th Avenue Mall where Ralph treated us to lunch at Yabu. After lunch, we roamed a bit around the mall and saw a Daiso outlet. Naturally, Angel wanted to take a look. We bought a few items, and then we went straight home.

    There was quite a bit of a jam along the way home. There were a lot vehicles on the road, you wouldn't think there is still pandemic. We arrived home at around 5 p.m. Edgar volunteered to take care of our dinner. He ordered for delivery of bento box. 

    Right now, I feel tired and sleepy. But I'm happy, Mama. The kids are all here. I know it won't take long before they have their clashes again, especially Ralph and Angel. I guess that's all part of being a family.

    Tomorrow is your birthday, and they are complete. We still don't know what to do, although going out is probably not on the list because we are still afraid of going out, especially now that there are a lot of people who do not even observe the protocols. We will probably just cook at home, Mama. Edgar will be cooking. We will go to the supermarket tomorrow to buy things we need for your birthday, and other items for the coming days.

    That will be all for now, Mama. Take are of yourself. Advance happy birthday.

    I miss you, Mama.

    I love you.

    

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Ralph is coming home

 Dear Mama,

    Ralph is coming home tomorrow. We'll pick him up from Pasig tomorrow, Edgar, Angel, and I. I rented a vehicle so we can pick him and bring his things. He will working from here, since their set up is still work from home. He said it will be okay if he is here, and they won't be required to report to work until January 2021. I hope everything goes well tomorrow on our way to pick him up, and on our way back home.

    That means they will be complete on Friday for your birthday, Mama. We still don't know what to do. We might just stay home because of the pandemic. I think Edgar will be cooking. He has been doing the cooking lately, Mama. He is taking care of Angel's diet, which is no histamine food. Angel said she's improving and her skin is feeling better. Edgar must be doing a great job, Mama.

    I think that will be all for now, Mama. I am actually falling asleep as I am typing this. 

    Hoping I will be with you really soon. I miss you, Mama.

    I love you.

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