I'm getting good!

Dear Mama,

You know what? I think I'm getting good in budgeting Mama. I am listing all our expenses for the last two weeks. Last week, I spent more than P1,000 on food but this week, it's only P500 plus. Isn't that good Mama? I noticed, every time I went to pick up Angel at school, I passed by the grocery store and buy something. And I always end up with food in the freezer - uncooked. This week, I went to the grocery store only once.

I hope I can keep this up Mama. Right now, I'm concentrating on the food, which is a necessity. I'm also cooking now Mama, only I'm doing easy dishes. You know, the frying thing, maybe I'll try to cook 'real' food soon.

The contest is over Mama, the winners are not yet announced. I don't know what to expect and I don't want to think about it.

That's all for now Mama. Take care of yourself. I miss you Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

I'm nervous Mama

Dear Mama,

I'm nervous Mama. Today is the last day of the contest for the influential blogs, I don't know if I'll make it. I'm hoping I would Mama, but I just don't know enough people. Times like these, I could use your help, I know you can convince a lot of people to support me.

This means a lot to me Mama, I hope to make you proud by proving that I am good in what I'm doing. I hope people can get to read my blogs and believed that I'm worth the vote.

Angel is in the school now Mama, and so is Edgar. Ralph will have a class this morning too, he'll be on his way anytime now.

Haven't taken my breakfast yet, I'm on my second cup of coffee though. I feel restless Mama. I know, my life doesn't depend on this. But it's been so long since I really got something to prove for myself.

In moments like these, I really could use your hug Mama... I miss you.

Take care of yourself. I think I bothered you enough, just please pray for me, okay.

I love you Mama.


Daddy

Just an update letter

Dear Mama,

I just arrived home. I took Angel to her school, Edgar is also in school now. Ralph is still sleeping. His class is still in the afternoon.

You know what Mama? Yesterday, I paid for our electric bill, last week I was able to update my Digitel account and also paid for the water bill. Both electric and water bills are for just one month, and they're already paid. Isn't that what you always tell me Mama? So that they won't pile up.

But what I'm really proud about them Mama is that, I paid them all from my blogging income! Finally, I'm getting something from blogging Mama. Still, not enough to cover for all our expenses, but at least I'm getting somewhere Mama. I hope you're proud of me.

Edgar once again asked me about his intention to join a band. He said they would have practice on Friday. I am inclined to allow him Mama. We both promise not to get in the way of our children's dreams. Let's just hope that we have laid enough foundation on him to avoid all those negative things attached to being a band member.

That would be all for now Mama. Will take my breakfast now. Ralph would be waking up soon I guess. Take care of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

Going out with the kids

Dear Mama,

We have just arrived home. We went to watch a movie, me and the kids. Last night I treated them to a dinner. I'm doing this Mama so they could take a break from home and also so that I could bond with them. I'm not really a good housekeeper for them at home.

I want to tell you something Mama, lately I've been feeling strange. Since last month, I always feel sleepy most of the time. This past few days, I feel pain at the back of my neck and a recurring headache. I hope it's nothing serious Mama. I plan to see a doctor soon.

That's all for now Mama. Take care of yourself Mama.

I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

Edgar wants to join a band

Dear Mama,

Edgar asked me the other day if I would allow him to join a band. He has been invited by a schoolmate to be their lead guitarist Mama. They would even join a battle of band competition once I allow him.

Would I allow him Mama? Half of me said I should, perhaps if you were here, you would allow him too. We know that we should encourage their talent, and Edgar is taking a shot of what was my dream before, to be a part of a band.

But I'm worried Mama. The skeptic in me is concern about what would happen to him. What type of influence would his band mates bring to him.

I haven't told him yes yet Mama, and didn't tell no either. I want him to pursue his dream, but I am afraid for him. I hope would make the right decision Mama. Because I know that whatever my answer is, it would have an affect on his future.

If only you were here Mama... if only you were here.

Take care of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

About Angel... and her dog Chuchi

Dear Mama,

It has happened. The thing that I most feared has happened Mama. Angel has her first 'visit' and it came while she was in school. It's a good thing her classmate thought her Mama, otherwise I wouldn't have known what to do.

Last Sunday, on our way home from the homecell, she said she's felling pain below her abdomen and told me that 'it's about come.' I don't know how she knew it, but we passed by the drugstore and bought napkin just to be prepared.

It didn't arrived that night Mama, but on Monday I told her to bring it school just in case it does. And she didn't tell me anymore about it. I just found out this morning because she's bringing another one and told me she has used the one she brought yesterday.

I was relieved Mama that someone was able to assist her. It wasn't really as scary as I thought it would be. But of course, it would have been different if you were here to guide her. I hope there wouldn't be any complications.

Angel's dog Chuchi is also our concerned now Mama. She hasn't eaten for two days and refused whatever we give her. She doesn't want to play anymore.

I'm worried because Angel loves her so much. She makes Angel happy just to see her. I hope she recovers and gets well.

That's all for now Mama. I wish I was saying these things to you personally. I really miss you Mama.

Take care of yourself.

I love you.


Daddy

A rainy Saturday morning....

Dear Mama,

Good morning. Good thing today's Saturday Mama and there's no school. The rain have been pouring all night long. I don't know if there's another storm.

I was supposed to write you last night, but I held if off lest I would rant to you again. Because it was already past ten in the evening and Ralph wasn't home yet. And if I hadn't text him, he wouldn't inform me that one of his classmate was having his birthday.

Like I said, they're growing up Mama, and I can't prevent them from having their social life. My request from Ralph was simple, just to inform me so that I won't worry. I don't know if it's intentional or not, but he doesn't Mama. And I don't want to be breathing over his shoulders always, it won't help him.

Wish I knew how to handle him and make him even more responsible. I don't want to think I'm failing... but it looks like I am Mama. I really wish you were here.

That's all for now Mama. Breakfast in a moment.

Take care of yourself. I miss you mama.

I love you.


Daddy

Before I go to sleep

Dear Mama,

Before I go to sleep, I thought of writing you a letter just to keep you updated with what's happening (although I'm sure you already knew it). Like I said before, the two boys are growing up and they are getting 'busy' these past few days, Angel on the other hand is really getting serious in her studies.

I'm doing better in my blogging now Mama. Hopefully by next month, I would get something more tangible for all my writing efforts. Pray for me Mama.

Sometimes I wish that you just left and went to a far away place Mama. At least I can expect to see you again then. But whenever the reality of what happened comes to me... it still hurt Mama... I still miss you. I really wish you're still here.

Take care of yourself Mama.

I love you.


Daddy

I miss your embrace

Dear Mama,

I really need your hug right now... I miss your embrace

I wish I can hug you again Mama, even if only in my dreams... I need you Mama


Daddy

It's inevitable Mama... the kids are growing

Dear Mama,

It's really inevitable, and I don't kno if I will be ready Mama. The kids are growing up fast.

Yesterday, Edgar went home late. When I asked him, he said they worked late in school. But since I sensed he's not telling the truth, I asked him again... he said, he accompanied a classmate home. I supposed it's a girl.

Today, Ralph didn't go home for lunch. He just text me and said they are going to his classmate's house. Not to ask my permission Mama, but just to inform me. He knew I would be waiting for him for lunch.

And Angel have been getting lots of calls at nights... mostly from her girl classmates, but there were also boys. I know, they are harmless and all... but they're still boys Mama!

They are growing up fast Mama... making decisions on their own... the boys already looking at their girl classmates.

I know it's normal Mama... but if you were only here, this could be easier to face. I wish you were Mama.

Take care of yourself now Mama. I really miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

Tatay is in the hospital

Dear Mama,

Yesterday, Tatay was admitted in the hospital. Ate Det rushed him there because they noticed him pale and having a hard time breathing. He was later diagnosed for pneumonia and other complications, he has a high BP too Mama.

The kids and I were at the movies yesterday when Ate Det texted me Mama, I thought we can finally celebrate a very belated father's day. These past two weekends, all the kids got sick. This time since I didn't get sick, I thought we can celebrate. But I was wrong Mama. Looks like celebration of any sorts is forbidden for me.

Sorry Mama, I'm ranting again. I just don't know what say. I really thought that everything will be fine for us finally.

I'll stop now Mama, please help me pray for Tatay to recover without any further complications.

Take care of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

Hope everything goes well

Dear Mama,

The kids are all fine now, nobody is sick anymore. I didn't get sick either, although I always feel sleepy most of the time. If it weren't for the kids' sickness, the last week would have been great for us Mama.

Anyway, it was over and I'm glad we survived it. Hopefully, things will be better from now on.

My blogging income is now becoming regular Mama, I also received money from GSIS. Now I can pay for the children's tuition fee. I was also able to pay some debt, at least now, I can start again with a clean slate. I hope this is the start of good things for us Mama.

Wish you were here. I want to share something with you. But I'll just tell when it finally materializes.

Take care of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy