My fear is coming true

Dear Mama,

It seems like my fear is coming true. The unexpected call I was telling you in my letter wasn't just a simple hello... I don't know why they're doing this Mama. Right now I'm just trying to ignore them. I wish you were here. You would know what to do with them.

I'm still writing from an internet cafe. I was absent from work today, trying to find funds from Ralph's tuition fee. Unfortunately, nobody wants to lend a blogger. I can't blame them really.

I hope something happens soon.

Take care of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

An unexpected call...

Dear Mama,

While getting the kids ready for school today, my cellphone rang. I was about to answer it, but when I read the registered name of the caller, I froze. It was Kong Boning. I didn't know whether to answer it or not Mama. But before I can decide, my cellphone shut down.

I didn't turn it on again, in fact I just left my phone at home. All day, I was anxious Mama. I could not even work. Thinking what could be the purpose of that call. The last thing that I would need is another 'let down' I still remember the last text.

Maybe I'm over-reacting. Perhaps it's for a good reason. I don't know Mama. I'm not sure if I can handle this... whatever it is. I don't know until when I can ignore the call. If only you were here I would know what to do Mama. No, I am not afraid of what he will say. But I am afraid for what could transpired from the conversation.

I wish I knew what to do Mama.


Daddy

Still writing from an internet cafe...

Dear Mama,

I am still writing right now from an internet cafe... never really have the money to get my internet connection reactivated. Not anytime now I guess. I thought I would be able to get anything from Rated K, but since I never asked for it, I guess I won't get anything either.

The internet disconnection is fine me, I'm doing fine accessing through public internet shop. But what I'm really concerned about now Mama is Ralph's tuition fee. Their finals has just been finished, yet I haven't paid anything yet except his entrance fee before. That means he won't be able to get his grades, and he might not be able to enroll for second semester, which by the way is just two weeks from now.

The money from ACPUSTA is still in limbo and I don't know if ever I will get in on time. Atching Ledy seems to have buried her debt with you. I just wish she would have the conscience to pay them. CAP is a hopeless case. Right now Mama, I'm holding on to nothing... nothing but prayers.. that somehow, something will happen.

I'm sorry I've written you rants and whining again Mama. You know I really don't have anyone to tell these to except you. Well, I've written quite enough, I guess I have to end it here before I write some more rants. I hope next time I'll be writing positive things to you again.

Take care of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you.

Daddy

Nervous and anxious...

Dear Mama,

I am at an internet cafe right now Mama, because my internet connection was suspended. I thought I could be accommodated until next month in spite of my delayed payments. I guess not. That is why I have to go out just to access the internet.

Right now Mama, I feel nervous, anxious and apprehensive. The shooting with Rated K has been finished, and the episode will be shown this Sunday. I am afraid what this can cause for us. I'm still not sure if I did the right thing. I don't even understand why I consented to it Mama.

But it has been done and it will be shown, whether I like it or not, there's really nothing I can do right now. I just hope this won't have any negative effect on the kids. Tomorrow, I'm going to work again, after being absent for 3 days because of this shooting. I have to work until month-end Mama. I don't why I have to practice courtesy, when in fact I am just a contractual employee.

For now Mama, I might just be writing you from an internet shop, so I may not write as often. Do take care of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you.

Daddy

Just came from La Pieta...

Dear Mama,

I just arrive home from La Pieta, I mean we just arrive home... the kids were with me. Finally Mama, after a long time we were able to visit you. Yes I know it's been a while since we were able to go there. Now I'm just glad that we did and we were complete.

Tomorrow Mama I'm going to file my resignation at Holiday Inn, I really want to be at home and stay with kids. But this time, while I stay at home I am earning. Not like before were I just stayed at home.

Finally, something came out of my writing Mama. I'm just glad I persevered even though I wasn't getting anything before.

Well, I guess that will be all for now Mama. I hope I can visit you more often in La Pieta. Take care of yourself Mama.

I miss you.
I love you.


Daddy

I hope it's okay with you...

Dear Mama,

Yesterday I was interviewed by Korina Sanchez for her program Rated K. I still don't know how they chanced upon my blog Mama, but they said they want to feature it on their show.

I hope it's okay with you if I tell a little something about our story. Honestly Mama, I'm really not sure if it's a good decision. I hope I did not make a mistake.

I wish I was interviewed with you, you could've talked with sense more.

Well, I guess I just have to wait until Sunday to know if it's a good decision or not. I'm sure you still support me Mama... even in my blunders.

Take care of yourself Mama. I miss you.

I love you.


Daddy

I'm resigning again...

Dear Mama,

Here I am again, planning to resign from my job at Holiday Inn. But this time, it's because I got a better opportunity. And what's good about this Mama is that I'll be doing this one at home, plus it involves writing.

You know how I love to write Mama, that is why I am inclined to choose this. Plus it pays me more that what I'm getting at Holiday Inn.

I know this is not a popular decision (again), but I hope you will still support me Mama. At least I can look after the kids since I will be working here at home. I sure hope this is the chance that I have been waiting for.

That will be all for now Mama, please do take care of yourself.

I love you Mama.

I miss you.


Daddy

It's tuition fee time again

Dear Mama,

Ralph's Finals will be next week, while Angel's will be anytime soon. As usual, with the schedules of these exams are the schedules of payment. Although I am already employed, it is still not enough. In fact, I still borrow money from Nanay just for our daily expenses.

I really wish this would all soon be over Mama. If only the ACPUSTA would already release the money they promise or Atching Ledy would pay the money she owed you, I will have something to pay for the tuition fee. Other than those and the proceeds of the computer units, should they be sold, I have nothing else to expect Mama. I just hope that everything will come on time.

I really miss you Mama, but I know, someday soon I will be with you.

Take care of yourself Mama. I love you.


Daddy